CHAPTER I ABOUT FOUR-THIRTY IN THE AFTERNOON OF NOVEMBER 2, 1942, a fast Dutch luxury liner with clean, nice lines, was torpedoed and sunk some few hundred miles off the coast of South America. Only a few of the more than four hundred persons on the ship survived, and three of them, Basil Dominic Izzi, a second class seaman of the United States Navy; Cornelius van der Slot and Nicko Hoogendam, Dutch merchant marine sailors, drifted in a raft for eighty-three days, a day short of twelve weeks, be- fore they were picked up a United States Navy PC (Patrol Craft) boat. In the months that followed that rescue on Janu- ary 24, 1943, Seaman Izzi-a small, husky boy of twenty-recovered completely, and spent some time telling people in factories all over the United States the story of his horrible adventure. I was with him much of the time on these trips, and he talked to me on several occasions in my home. He seems in no way affected, mentally or physically, by the ordeal. 9 In that: respect, he is rather puzzling, being some- how one of the few people in the world whose mind and body at the particular time that two torpedoes hit the port side of the ship was in such good shape that he was ready for the test to follow. He is a highly intelligent young man, and a remarkable physical specimen, with the quick movements and swaying carriage of a good infielder, which he is. This, then, is pretty much the story of Seaman Izzi as he told it to me and his friend, Ensign Robert Mallett, over a period of several weeks. Izzi was a member of the United States Navy's armed guard assigned to the ship. The crew, made up of hard young men from all parts of the United States, was an efficient and slighfiy obstreperous one, and was in the charge of Ensign James Shaw Maddox, a sensitive, scholarly young man who had taught speech at Purdue University. Maddox was a good officer, imposed sufficient discipline on his crew and represented them well in their complaints about their life on the Dutch ship. It is a fairly true axiom that all young men in a military unit gripe, complaining bitterly and un- fruitfully, this being, perhaps, an antidote against 10 the tiring, deadening effects of discipline. The gun crew of the ship griped; members, as they met gun crews of other ships in ports in Africa, complained about their ship, its officers and especially about much of the food served them, which was more in the Dutch manner than the American. The vessel was a beautiful ship; its own crew and officers were proud of her. She still retained the luxurious ap- pointments with which she had been fitted in peace- time days, and although she was a dead gray on the outside, she was scrubbed and shining inside. Her officers imposed the stern, rigid discipline which has kept the Dutch merchant marine great since the sixteenth century. Izzi, however, remembers the ship with some bitterness, and, of oourse, with pride. The Captain and all the officers were strict as hell," Izzi said one day. "The Captain was a big, heavy-set man. Sometimes he'd walk along and stick his head in our quarters. If we'd play the victrola, he'd squawk because there was too much noise. We were made to clean up the saloon, and so we ate in the crew's mess. Every morning, cheese, cof- fee, and jelly. We were a week out of the harbor on the way to Africa, when we were served pie. That was the only pie we got until we reached Egypt. We kicked and kicked to Ensign Maddox, our gun- 11 nery oificer, and he kicked to the Captain, but we didn't get anywhere." The ship, loaded with ammunition, food supplies, and equipment for overseas work, put out from an East Coast port in July, 1942. She stopped in Recife for water and food, and set out for Africa. Off Africa, she picked up a British convoy. On a Friday, Izzi and his companions were shining their equip- ment. "The fellows had no shoes on," Izzi said. "We were working over the equipment when boom! 'What was that?' a fellow yells, and then another guy says, 'Ooh, a torpedo!' We get our shoes on and head for the guns, although one watch was already at them. A ship in the convoy started to list, and then went down, bow first. The rest of the convoy kept right on going, and destroyers and escorts picked up the men of the torpedoed ship, and left a lot of depth charges where they thought the sub- marine was. The next day, destroyers found the submarine, dropped charges, and wham they got her. She came up sort of whoosh, her bow broke water and then went right on down." The ship put in at a South African port for a cou- ple of days, and then set out for the Red Sea. The convoy broke up there, and the Dutch ship made 12 a run to Egypt alone. She unloaded there and came back to South Africa, where she stayed for three days. Izzi and a few friends got leave there. Izzi shopped for presents for his family: some painted silk pillow cases for his mother; bracelets in ivory for his sisters; ivory-handled knives for his younger brothers; and an English pipe with a huge bowl for his father. Izzi was walking along the streets when he met a friend, a kid named Charles Italiano, of New Rochelle, who had done Izzi a favor in boot camp, where Navy recruits are first taught the rigid Navy life. The favor had come about when Izzi got into considerable trouble over some oranges. The boys were forbidden to eat oranges in any place but the. mess hall of the camp, but Izzi had sneaked four or five in his jumper and tried to leave the mess hall. A messman caught him, grabbed his cap and told him to give the oranges back. Izzi handed them over one by one, and angered by the time he got to the last one, he threw it at the messman, who had smeared Izzi's white cap with grease. The messman left with Izzi's cap, and gave it to his chief officer. Izzi, short a cap, was caught red-handed, and his boss said Izzi would have to go either to the brig or face the consequences. Izzi chose consequences and 13 spent a whole day picking up ten buckets of ciga- rette butts from over the huge camp grounds. Feel- ing that the messman had squealed on him over a wholly personal affair, Izzi had confided his trou- bles to Italiano who was to box the messman in some camp games a few days later. I'll take care of him," Italiano had said, and he did, lacing the squealer to ribbons. Italiano, who was on the gun crew of an Ameri- can freighter, pounded Izzi on the back, and said immediately, "I want you to take home a present to my folks for me. I got six butterfly trays in Rio, and your ship makes twenty-three knots, and ours only makes ten, so I want you to take them." "Look," Izzi said, "we may never get home," Italiano insisted Izzi had a better chance than he, and eventually Izzi consented. Then, having gotten what he wanted, Italiano told Izzi that Rosario Mastronado, called Bucky, was in the American freighter's crew and was right then asleep in the quarters of the ship. Bucky had been one of Izzi's closest friends in South Barre, Massachusetts; they had gone to Springfield and enlisted together, had gone through boot camp and gunnery school to- gether, had tried to finagle things so they would be on the same gun crew but had failed in the project. 14
Izzi and Italiano visited the American ship, and Italiano awakened Bucky, saying, "Izzi's here." Bucky, sleepily, said, "Don't give me that," and turned over and went back to sleep. When awak- ened finally, and after some pounding of backs, Bucky pounced on Izzi. Bucky had a big doll he had bought in Rio and he wanted Izzi to take it home for him, using the same argument as Italiano about how Izzi's ship was faster and safer than theirs. Izzi demurred, pointing out that with his own purchases, and with Italiano's six butterfly trays, he was already loaded down. The boys talked then a while of boot camp, of gunnery school, and of home, and more about the qualities of their re- spective ships, and then split up. Izzi is still both- ered about Italiano's trays, reposing now in a ship at the bottom of the South Atlantic. In Africa, the ship loaded ore, hemp and flax, and took on more than two hundred passengers. Most of them were survivors of torpedoed ships, Navy and merchant marine officers, Navy gun-crew mem- bers, and merchant marine seamen. A lot of them were scared to sleep in their cabins, having the fear of being below decks which commonly attacks men who have been on ships which were torpedoed. Izzi's gun crew began to eat in the saloon, and the 15 food improved. Izzi thinks that the status of his crew was raised, because Navy officers were present as passengers and would have forced the Dutch Captain to feed the boys American food, anyway. By this time, the gun-crew members had developed a saying that the Germans would never torpedo their ship as it was too valuable to them because of the effect it had on the American sailors' morale. On the return trip, the boys were told not to mingle with passengers, but they got around this rule by having the passengers, many of them also gun-crew men, visit them in their quarters. The ship carried three Navy guns; a big fellow and two anti-aircraft guns. There were also two anti-aircraft guns which were handled by the Dutch crew, and four thirty-calibre Marlin rifles, which no one ever used. Izzi was gun pointer on the big gun, a responsible job. The ship was three days out of Capetown, when at night its funnel started shooting sparks. At mid- night, she was challenged by a ship which blinked signals at her. The crew manned the guns, and sud- denly out of the dark loomed two warships in front of the ship, one on each side, and one in back. They. turned floodlights on the Dutch ship, and the boys were frightened. A boat was lowered from one of 16 the warships, and it approached the merchant ship. An officer called to the vessel to raise its flag. An excitable member of the crew ran the flag upside down, causing it to look like the old German ensign. The Captain roared, and the flag was lowered and put up right. By this time, every one on the ship was a pale green. "We had our guns loaded, and our shells on deck, and were ready to blast the first ship," Izzi said, "but when we saw five warships we sure changed our mind." Izzi couldn't hear what the officer in the ship's boat said, but it seemed to have worked all right, because the warships disappeared into the night, and the ship went on its way. On November 1, the boys reckoned they were thirteen days out of New York and conversations were beginning to start up about shore leave. On that day, an airplane circled high above the ship. The boys couldn't identify it, but thought it was a friendly one and that the next day they would prob- ably meet and join a convoy. The following day, a bright pleasant one, the boys spent cleaning and painting the ship's guns. "I was on a detail on the port side, painting the Dutch guns," Izzi said. "Me and three other fellows got finished painting them about three-thirty in the afternoon, and we thought we'd go back aft where 17 another detail was working on the others. They had got the gun scraped and were putting red lead on her when we went to look at them. We razzed them for a while, and they threw a wrench at us, and so me, and Jensen, Joudy, Labe, and Satterwhite, fel- lows in my detail, went back to our quarters to play some five hundred rummy before we went to chow. "Joudy went in to take a shower, and Norman Labe, a kid from Fall River, Massachusetts, and I were partners against Jensen and Satterwhite. Labe wasn't much good, but we weren't playing for money, and so it didn't matter much. We played about three hands and a radio man named Lorenz came in. He said we were three or four hundred miles off the coast of Brazil, and then he lit a ciga- rette and started talking about things in general, We told him to scram, that we didn't want to listen to his stuff while we were trying to play cards. "Now it's about four-fifteen, or four-thirty, and so he walks out, and we play a few hands more. Jensen is dealing, and bam! and we get hit. I holler, 'Jeez, right under us!'" 18 CHAPTER II FOR SOME REASON OR OTHER, THE WORD "TORPEDOED," to most civilians, is too ambiguous a term. The word does not get across the terrific blast with which a torpedo strikes, the blinding sheet of flame, the shattered bulkheads, twisted girders, the mangled men it makes in an awful explosion. "We all rushed out of the cabin," Izzi said, "leav- ing Joudy in the shower. We forgot all about him. It was just around the corner from our quarters to the main deck, and the first fellow I bump into is my gun captain, John Crum, a boatswain's mate, second class. He had his hands over his head, and I looked up and water and wreckage was falling down over him and us. The hallway filled with water and wreckage, and we couldn't get out. So we hollered 'Everybody back and through the lounge.' There were about five of us and we shoved through to get to the guns. Some people were hollering and screaming, scared as hell, but most of us were calm. 19 The whole place had a horrible smell, and it filled up with smoke. We got outside and were running to the guns, and I noticed the ship's crew letting go the rafts, and the ship was still going, making head- way. "We got to the guns; they were in order, and I went back to get my life jacket. I got into our cabin, and looked and found that Joudy had gotten out, so I grabbed my jacket and went back to the gun. Our room was a wreck, chairs broken, pictures down, everything in pieces. "Ensign Maddox, our gunnery officer, was on the bridge, and he gave us a range of 2,000, figuring, I suppose, that that would be about where a sub- marine would fire from. The gun captain and the rest of the crew were working; I was at my position, and the talker-he's the fellow with the things on his head who talks to the bridge-said to Maddox, 'loaded and ready, sir.' "We were loaded and ready, and I was set to pull the trigger, but there wasn't any submarine that we could see. Joudy came up to the gun deck, and said that the Captain had told his men that it was only an explosion in the engine room. We told Joudy that the Captain was full of apples, that it must be a tor- pedo, because an engine room explosion wouldn't 20 do that kind of damage. Then bam! another one hit us, hit us again right on the port side. "This knocked out the communications between the gun and Maddox, who was on the bridge. That second one shook hell out of us. Men were trying on deck to get the lifeboats loose, and they did get the ones on the starboard side down, but the ones on the port side were damaged by the explosions. An officer came by and said 'Don't get nervous boys.' It sounded funny to me." The gun deck on a merchant ship is high above the deck at the stem of the ship, and Izzi and his companions stayed there for a while. The ship, her once sleek structure twisted and awry, began to sink, bow first. As the bow sank, the stern raised, and soon the gun was useless, pointing up in the air. One of the boys said, "Let's get out of here," and they dropped down to the deck. Izzi had on only a pair of dungarees, and so he ducked into the ship's laundry which was right be- low the gun's small deck, and grabbed the first shirt he saw. It was the Captain's, as Izzi found out later. He put the shirt on, not bothering to tuck it in under his trousers. "Jensen and Joudy, my best pals," Izzi said, "were standing on the stern, and it was raising up higher 21 all the time. Men and wreckage were in the water, and now and then you could hear a fellow scream. I couldn't figure whether to jump from right where I was, or move thirty or forty feet forward, and walk right into the water. I decided I'd better get out of there quick, and I looked down and yelled to fel- lows swimming below me to get out of the way. They cleared a space, and I grabbed the top of my life jacket with both hands so when I hit the water it wouldn't come up and break my neck, and I jumped. A fellow came right behind me, and landed on top of me, and I thought I never would come up. "The old ship was going fast, and I swam as hard as I could to get away from her. She was a beautiful ship, and I was sorry to see her go, even though I had griped to beat hell about her. I looked back at her, and I saw a friend of mine, a kid from Chicago, grabbing the rail, frozen there, scared stiff, I guess. I yelled at him to jump, but he didn't seem to hear me, or if he did, he just couldn't let go anyway. I guess he was still frozen to that rail when the ship went down. I saw the gun pointing straight up in the air, and the last thing I ever saw of the ship was her twin screws sticking out of the water. There was a lifeboat right near her. When the ship went 22 under, bow first, like she was diving, she made a noise like a waterfall, you know, and a great big wave. The wave lifted the lifeboat up against the sky, and I could see her and everybody in her. "There were a lot of bamboo rafts floating around, and pieces of hatch covers that had been blown out in the water by the explosions, and people were hanging on to the rafts and to the hatch covers and to any piece of wreckage they could find. I came across Jensen in the water and we grabbed a piece of wreckage, and began to kick it along in the water." Two of the three lifeboats on the starboard side of the ship got safely into the water. The third had capsized after it had been launched. The two up- right boats were overcrowded, and about sixty men, far more than capacity, were trying to right the cap- sized boat. The submarine which had sunk the ship surfaced, and five men came out of her and watched the men struggling in the water. "Four of the German guys stayed in the conning tower where they had a machine gun, and I thought for a minute they might be going to use it on us. The other guy walked out on the deck and yelled something at the two lifeboats that were right side up and pointed at the horizon. I guess he was telling 23 them which Way to find land, because they set out in the direction he pointed. The submarine hung around fifteen minutes or so, while a fellow in the tower looked around with a pair of binoculars, and then it submerged. It was kind of tough to see the lifeboats put up sail and go away, but they were overloaded as it was and they couldn't have done anything for us. You couldn't help but think, though, about how with a little luck you might have been one of the guys in those boats that were going some place." Clinging to their little bamboo raft, which was constructed to give a man some support but not to carry him, Jensen and Izzi stayed in the vicinity of the capsized lifeboat for a while. They watched the men turn the boat over, and search for the hole that was in it. They watched while the men found the hole and began to plug it up. Ensign Maddox floated by, and Izzi and Jensen yelled to him. 'He reached out from a bamboo support he was hold- ing to, and grabbed the boys' raft. The three of them tried to tie the two rafts together with pieces of rope on the rafts, but couldn't make it. Maddox yelled to a Dutch officer who was trying to fix the lifeboat for a line, but the officer didn't hear him. Maddox asked Izzi and Jensen if they had seen 24 the other boys of the gun crew, and they reported the names of a few men they had seen drifting with wreckage. The open and swelling sea makes for loneliness, for a man might be ten feet from another and not see him. If he calls, he is likely to swallow salt water, and men near him cannot tell from what direction he is shouting. Hundreds of men were struggling, floating and dying in the water that warm afternoon, and yet only a few saw each other. The men seemed to drift in little currents, like eddies of flotsam, and a group of ten or so might have knowledge of one another until the last was dead. In an odd accident of times like this one, all the cork insulation of the engine rooms had been blasted loose by the torpedoes, and waves of cork fragments floated like a sheet toward the men. In the growing dusk, the cork looked black, and a man cried desperately, "My God, fellows, here comes the oil." With horror the men watched the stuff come on them, until, like a happy twist in a shabby melo- drama, it was revealed for what it was. The men were relieved, but the stuff got in their eyes, mouths and hair, and plagued them for hours and hours. Men swallowed it and were sick, and the cork be- came a desperate, ragging annoyance. 25 At length the third lifeboat was fixed and righted. In it were placed a couple of men who had been wounded in other sinkings and were being shipped home on the ship. The boat stayed around for a while, as men arranged themselves and counted each other. Izzi watched while a man was lifted from the boat and let slide into the water. He had died in his few moments of safety. Other wounded men were in the water, beyond help, and others who had only recently recovered from illness and operations groaned and cried as they struggled in the sea. And then the third lifeboat, also over- loaded, sailed away. Jensen swam away from Izzi toward a piece of wreckage that looked somehow safer, and Izzi with some instinct stayed with Maddox. Then he and Maddox came upon a larger bamboo raft on which two men, unable to swim, without life jackets and frightened, were lying. Joudy, Satterwhite and Autripp, other gunners, showed up at the big raft, and all clung there. Then they were joined by two Dutch merchantmen. Desperately, the men tried to gather other wreckage and tie it all together to give them some haven for the approaching night. The two men would not move from their positions on the light raft because if they fell in the water 26 it meant death, and so Izzy borrowed a clasp knife with a long, single blade from one of them, to cut rope from some of the smaller rafts, for attempts at binding other rafts together with the rope. He kept the knife. "It started to get dark," Izzi said, "and then you started to hear the hollering and the cries. A fellow would yell, 'I'm over here,' and another would cry back, 'I can't see you.' It was not so cold, not so warm, and the sunset was red in the sky, and then a wave would lift you high and you could see the sun setting in the horizon." The few pitifully mismated pieces of wreckage, flimsy bamboo rafts and ungainly hatch covers the men were able to gather together broke apart con- stantly, and each time the men tried to bring them together again. Most of the men wore life jackets, and many of them, as Izzi had done, had taken off their shoes and dungarees in the water. Many were shocked from the explosion and their jumps into the water, and all had swallowed at least a little salt water in the choppy sea. The life jackets became hard and uncomfortable, and now and then a sharp, choppy wave would drive the jacket against a man's neck or chin, giving him sharp pain to add to his weariness and water sickness. 27 "Every time a wave hit, it seemed," Izzi said, "a guy would drift away. Maybe he would think of a better place to go, or maybe he would be tired and quit, or maybe he would just go to sleep. Then you would hear guys hollering for help, screaming that sharks were attacking them, and there was nothing you could do, and then maybe they would stop screaming, and you wouldn't hear them after that, or maybe a guy would stop right in the middle of a yell, and you would know that something cer- tainly got him. "Pretty soon, there was left just me, and Joudy, Satterwhite, Autripp, the two men on top of the raft, and my gunnery officer, Mr. Maddox. We struggled in the water, hanging on to the big bam- boo raft. Our life jackets got heavy, even if they were good for seventy-two hours. "And then about midnight, things began to hap- pen to me." 28 CHAPTER III ABOUT MIDNIGHT THERE BEGAN FOR IZZI AND SOME OF the men with him a species of delirium which had all the qualities of the will-o'-the-wisp, or the Lorelei, fantasies of pleasure that, for many men with Izzi and probably for many men wrecked at sea for centuries, ended in death. "I swallowed so much salt water, although I tried not to," Izzi said, "that things around me began to change. I was hanging on the raft, and I looked over to the left and there was a wall, a fairly tall, stone- wall, and I could hear the water lapping against it. I knew that if there was a wall over there, there was sure to be land behind it, and so I started to swim over to it. "Joudy left the raft and pulled me back, and I hung on for a while longer while I drifted. Then about half an hour later I looked over to the left again, and there was the wall and behind it were some big towers for high-tension wires, and so I knew that this must be near civilization, and so I 29 started for the wall again, and Joudy brought me back again, although I could hear the water lapping against the wall and I knew that it was there. "It was really there. I could see the wail, and see the waves hit against it and bounce right back. And each time I started out for it, Joudy brought me back." Then Izzi began thinking about Coca-Cola, and he began talking about it, and then he could feel . it going down his throat. "I thought I was on a motor boat," he went on, "going a mile a minute, it was so fast. There was a driver up front, and I asked him 'where are you taking me?' He didn't say anything, but kept driving fast in the water, and pretty soon I got the idea of where we were going. We were going to a night club across the lake. "And the stars were big and close, and they looked like the lights on a ship, and they blinked like the blinking lights on a ship, and I was sure there were ships around us. Then I smelled some smoke, and I noticed a big hole near me, where guys were going down for a cigarette. I felt awfully much like a cigarette, and I said to Joudy, 'Johnny, I'm going down for a smoke, down to where ail those guys are coming up from smoking.' Joudy hauled me back to the raft again." 30 Joudy-Emile Joudy, of Lawrence, Massachusetts -saved his friend's life many times that night. Later he was to die, exhausted, sick, and alone. Izzi saw the wall again, and behind it were the high,, electrical towers, just like the ones that run through the woods behind his home in South Barre, and this time there was a lunchroom behind the wall, too. It was a white one, the sort of place that sells mainly hamburgers, pie, doughnuts and coffee. Izzi could see fellows coming in and out of the lunchroom, and now and then a truck would stop, the driver would get out, go in and hunch over a stool. Izzi wanted some coffee, and he set out for the stand. Joudy hauled him back. "You can't go there now," Joudy said. "You got to stay here. It's orders. We'll all go over there in the morning." Then Izzi looked back, and he saw the stern of the ship rise out of the sea, clearly outlined in the bright, starry tropical night. The back half of the ship rose out of the water, and leveled nicely. Izzi watched and he saw men go over to the ship, climb a ladder up to her deck, and there he could see the cook giving them bacon and eggs. "I thought we were on a detail," Izzi said. "I thought we were out here in the water doing some sort of a job, and I could see these other fellows 31 going in and getting something to eat. I saw the bread on the mess tables, and the cook and the messmen handing out the food, and fellows going and sitting down. "And so I called over to Mr. Maddox, my gunnery officer, who was still hanging on the raft, and asked him if we all couldn't go in and get somethihg to eat, and change our clothes, smoke a cigarette, and then we would all come back out here. He said he didn't think we had better go, and then I asked him how about my cup of coffee. Couldn't we have some messman bring us out one, like he would do if we were out a cold night on watch. Mr. Maddox said, 'Tomorrow morning, Izzi, we will all have eggs and coffee. I couldn't see why we shouldn't all go in and get some rest and come back tomorrow and finish the job. Joudy kept me at the raft, holding on to the top of my life jacket and pulling me back whenever I left." Through that night Izzi saw his wall, rode in the motor boat, and pleaded to go back to the ship for some coffee. He was not the only one to suffer from hallucinations. Albert Satterwhite, a North Carolina boy who once had auctioned tobacco, suffered from an illusion which seems to have been fostered by much attendance at movies. 32 "Satterwhite got to talking," Izzi said, "about a hill. The swells really made you think there were hills near-by. He said, 'Come on, we'll go over that hill, and I know some German spies who have a place over there, and I know them pretty well, and they will treat us swell. We'll get us plenty to eat from them, all fixed up.' He convinced Autripp that there was something over the hill, and both started to leave. "I yelled at Satterwhite and Autripp, 'Are you crazy?' and that made Satterwhite mad, and he swore at me, and he and Autripp swam away." Izzi started talking to Joudy about Coca-Cola, and the wall, the motor boat, the power lines, the lunch-room, and the ship. Joudy, at intervals, hold- ing firmly to Izzi's life jacket, would reply, "Stick with us, and tomorrow we'll get all we want." Then Izzi started hearing a man yell "balance it, balance it!" This quite possibly could have been some man yelling instructions to another on a raft, but to Izzi it had an uncanny, authoritative note. He couldn't understand what the voice meant, what he was sup- posed to do when the man called for him to balance whatever it was. Then he saw a man writing figures in a book, and he was puzzled. "This sort of thing went on all night," Izzi said. 33 "The wall, and then the power lines, and then the hamburger stand, and then the ship, and then this guy writing the figures down, two columns, fast as hell, in that book he had. Once in a while the other guys would see a ship, or a fellow would yell for coffee and butts. Now and then a guy would bump into you on a hatch cover and stick around for a while. A small moon came up, and the phosphorus in the water was like stars, and the stars in the sky were beating down on you, all different colors, like spotlights, and that's what happened all that night, and some time before sunup I came back and I was all right again." Madness had not yet left the men who. bobbed the night through in the choppy, tropical sea. Shortly before dawn, a star fell, like a ship shooting a flare, and men yelled that a ship had come and was going to save them. Off in the distances, a few men were raving and their wails added a demonic, unreal quality to the night. "Just before the sun came up," Izzi said, "we bumped into another gun crew officer, Ensign Fawks, who had been torpedoed in the Red Sea and was coming home on the ship. He was sitting on a hatch cover, riding it like a horse. He had a bamboo pole in his hand, and he stayed close to 34 us on the bamboo raft. If we started to drift apart, one of us would grab the pole and pull him along, or he'd pull us along, I don't know which. "Then the sharks began coming around, and Fawks would watch for them, and when one got close he would give it a whack on the nose with his pole and drive it away. He'd say, 'Look out, here comes one! Watch!' and then he'd whack it. The sharks would go off for a while, and then they'd come back, and Mr. Fawks would hit them with his pole and drive them away again. "All that day the sun was very strong. It was cloudy, but every few minutes the sun would come out and burn you. I was hungry as the devil, and sleepy, and thirsty, and all around us was all this cork and wreckage and guys doubled up over pieces of wood. We kept trying to pull in wreckage, but waves would take it away from us. Once in a while we could see a bird, and the day seemed to go like that. We were awfully tired, and it was hard keep- ing to the bamboo raft, and the fellows who were on top wouldn't get off, and we kept asking them to get off and hang on a while, so one of us could rest, but they were too scared. "Then night came, and the moon was high, and the waves were choppy, and a wave would hit you, 35 and you would swallow salt water and puke. That night went on. I would doze off and then wake up and I would still be hanging to the raft, and the life jacket was getting hard around the edges and it cut into my belly." Few men survive a day and two nights in water with only life jackets and a flimsy hand-hold on a light raft to keep them alive. With only their heads out of water, their arms wracked with fatigue, these men somehow stayed alive, helpless, unable to see more than a few feet, with waves washing over them. Shortly before the sunrise that followed the sec- ond night, Ensign Maddox succumbed to illusions, and his particularly able description, helped pos- sibly by his being an experienced speaker and voice teacher, swayed the men with him. "Mr. Maddox, my gunnery officer," Izzi recalled, "said he had noticed a hatch cover near us with some beer in it. All we had to do was find this par- ticular cover, lift it up, and there were three or four cases of beer. Well, Labe and Joudy, and Mr. Mad- dox and me, all separate, leave the bamboo raft and go looking for the beer. Jeez, there I was swimming around, puking once in a while, and trying to find 36 this hatch cover where you could go down below and get some beer. "Then daylight came, and I could see that wall again, and the high tension wire, and I heard a cry, 'Help, help. I can't make it!' I saw a sailor trying to make the raft. He was off another crew, one of the torpedoed fellows who had been a passenger." Izzi went to the fellow, and took him by an arm. The man had cramps, and Izzi told him to kick and somehow they made it to the raft which Izzi had left to search for beer. Joudy had gotten back to it. The two men were still there, lying on top; Ensign Fawks was riding his hatch cover, staying by the raft, and another member of Izzi's gun crew, and a roommate named Kacevitch, had joined the raft. Maddox and Labe were gone. Somehow, notwith- standing that there were about three hundred men in the water after the lifeboats had sailed away, the men stayed in groups, subject to some selective caprice of currents. "And there we were, busy hanging on to the raft again," Izzi continued. "Kacevitch was pretty bad, and he kept saying, 'I got to get back to my father. I got a book for him, and I can't let it sink, because I got to get it back to my father.' We couldn't see 37 any book. Joudy and I got Kacevitch between us and tried to help him. We tried to get the guys on the raft to come over the side and hang on, so we could get Kacevitch up on it so he could rest, but they wouldn't get off." Then Izzi saw a raft, a heavy wooden one with four men on it. Most of the ones of this kind had been tossed off the ship before she came to a stop after the first torpedo struck her, and had been lost to the men. "I thought Lorenz, the radio man, was on it," Izzi said, "and I told Joudy I would swim over there and get them to come back and help Kacevitch. I started out, and Jeez, it felt like a year. At first I swam directly toward it, and saw I couldn't make it be- cause it was drifting. Then I swam to get in front of it, and figured the current would bring it down to me. There were sharks around, and my legs ached, and my life jacket was heavy and hard and giving me cramps, and I never thought I would make it." The raft finally drifted to where Izzi bobbed, half-exhansted, in the water. A man stuck a paddle toward him to help, but Izzi climbed unaided on to the raft and fell across it. On the raft were Ensign Maddox, George Beezley, another American sailor; 38 Cornelius van der Slot, an oiler on the ship; and Nicko Hoogendam. Beezley and Hoogendam had been torpedoed once before and had been passen- gers on the vessel. Izzi was to spend months with these four men on that raft. Izzi explained the plight of the men on the bamboo raft, and for a few hours the men tried to paddle the ungainly, rectangular raft toward the bamboo square, but the current forced them apart, and soon the men whom Izzi had left in an attempt to save them were out of sight, among them Emile Joudy, who many times had saved Izzi's life, and Ensign Fawks, who, gaily riding a hatch cover like a horse and wielding a bamboo pole like a lance, had driven sharks away from the men clinging desperately to the frail bamboo. 39 CHAPTER IV THE ONLY MAN ON THE RAFT THAT IZZI KNEW AT ALL well was Ensign Maddox, his gunnery officer. Izzi was acquainted with van der Slot, having made the voyage to Egypt and part way back with him. He had seen Beezley and Hoogendam on shipboard but didn't know their names. Hoogendam he remem- bered particularly, because the Dutch boy had tried to come on ship one night with a bottle of beer while Izzi was standing gangway watch. Izzi had refused to let the young man on board, and Hoo- gendam had become quite angry. They were an oddly assorted quintet. Maddox was sensitive, some- thing of an intellectual; Izzi was a husky, intelli- gent, athletic kid; Beezley was a rough and tumble sailor from Hannibal, Missouri, a roisterer; van der Slot was an experienced seaman, of thirty-seven; and Hoogendam was a seventeen-year-old Dutch boy who had escaped from the Nazis and had been a fisherman from the time he was thirteen or four- 40 teen and had only recently become a merchant sea- man. Beezley was the first to speak to Izzi, having of- fered him the paddle. Nothing much was said at first, and it is possible that there was a slight tinge of annoyance--nothing stronger-on the part of some of the men at having to thin out the not very apparent comforts of the raft from a four- to a five- way division of food and room. When it was obvious that the men on the raft could not get it over to help any of the men with whom Izzi had spent nearly three days in the water, Izzi and Maddox talked quietly for a while. Mad- dox, who was not clear on the night's events, asked Izzi, "Where were you all night?" Izzi, startled because he had been with Maddox until that morning, said, "I went after that beer you had us all looking for." Maddox could not remember anything about the night and morning. He had been dragged on to the raft a couple of hours before Izzi had reached it. The other three men had been on the raft for more than a day, and were in better shape than either Maddox or Izzi, who, for the first few hours, lay in a half-sleep of exhaustion. The four men broke out some rations for Izzi- a tiny piece of chocolate, a sip of tinned milk, a sea 41 biscuit, and a cup full of water. The raft was about as navigable as a wash tub, yet it was durable and well suited to the purpose for which it was built. It was a crate, eight feet by nine, and built over two, big steel, watertight drums on either end. It was built the same on the bottom as on the top, so that no matter how it was thrown from a ship, it landed right side up. There were ledges about two feet wide on the four sides, and in the center was a lower deck space, about five by four feet. In the center of the five-by-four deck was a small hatch which opened into the water below. No part of the raft was solid wood; it was all in slats, but its construction was such that water seldom came up through the bot- tom, although many times it came over the side. The raft rode well in the water, and the men could reach their hands between the slats of the deck and touch water, and if the hatch were open they could put their feet in water. Food and water containers had been stored in the hatch, which could have been reached from either the top or the bottom of the crate, top and bottom being arbitrary terms. An inventory showed that on the raft were two flashlights, a larger light which could be used for a running light, a big yellow canvas covering, a smaller piece of cloth, one can of matches, a medical 42 kit with bandages, a bottle of iodine, a tweezer and a pair of scissors; nine cans of milk, a few dozen hardtack biscuits, ten gallons of water and a two- pound can of chocolate. The chocolate came in inch-and-a-half squares. After a conference led by Maddox, the only commissioned officer aboard (a point still important with the men), it was decided what each man's rations would be for a day: a cup of water in the morning with a piece of cracker; a half cup in the afternoon with a little milk and a piece of cracker, and at night, a cup of water, a piece of hardtack, and a fifth of a piece of chocolate which was about enough to cover a thumbnail. All this having been decided, Izzi slept a while, curled on a ledge of the raft. His exhaustion dulled the pain and shock of leaving his companions on the bamboo raft, men with whom he had spent two nights and days of misery which had been height- ened by a strong will and desire to live, a will and wish which was to be destroyed by water and sun for Labe, Kacevitch, Ensign Fawks, and Joudy. Izzi had pleaded that the men on the raft try to reach the bamboo raft. At first some of them demurred, pointing out that there was neither room nor provi- sions for the other men. Then they decided to tow the other raft with a rope, and the five men, ex- 43 hausted as they were, tried frantically to paddle to the men clinging on the flimsy bamboo raft. They were unable to make headway, and Izzi knew that Joudy and Fawks, who had saved his life many times in a few hours, were to lose their own. "We decided to pull watches day and night," Izzi said. "During the day, about fifteen or twenty min- utes was all a man could stand looking into the water and sun. At night the watch was one to two hours; we didn't have any watches that were going, and so we figured that as long as a fellow could keep looking around at night, that was two hours. At night the fellow on watch, about every hour or so, would make a couple of swings with one of the flashlights, so that if any ship was around the people on it could see the light. "At first it didn't seem so bad, especially after those days in the water. You know what it was like when you were a kid and you used to think about floating down a river or out to sea, all alone on a raft? It seemed kind of like that, with beautiful days, wonderful sunsets and nights with the stars close. "There were hundreds of birds, most of them black with white spots on their heads, in size a little 44 smaller than a robin. On the second day we fed them cracker crumbs, we were that sure of being picked up soon. We thought we were close to land- or else why should all the birds be out there? Espe- cially the little birds. Other birds were white like small sea gulls. Sometimes a bird would rest on the raft and we wouldn't even bother it. We thought it would probably bring us bad luck if we killed and ate them." Izzi does not recall ever reading The An- cient Mariner. Except for Maddox, the men on the raft had been workmen, and they observed the courtesy that men in road gangs, factories, mills and on ships show each other. They were helpful, co-operative, and they restrained any curiosity they might feel about the others. No man thought to introduce himself to the others, and it was several days before Izzi knew the names of all of his companions. Names were to cause the five men some trouble. "Like van der Slot," Izzi said once. "He told us finally that his name was Cornelius van der Slot. You couldn't call a fellow Cornelius all the time. Van der Slot didn't speak English as well as the kid, Hoogendam, and so we asked Hoogendam to ask van der Slot what to call him. The kid talked to 45 Cornelius, and he said we should call van der Slot 'Case,' which is a word the Dutch use for Cor- nelius. "Then there was the kid. His name was Nicko Hoogendam. You couldn't call him Nicko; it sounded funny. Beezley started calling him 'Jun- ior,' and that stuck for a while but Hoogendam didn't like it. He got the idea of it, and he didn't like it. One day he said, 'Why do you always call me Junior? I've got a name, haven't I?' We asked him what he wanted us to call him, and he said, 'Nick,' and that's what it was. "The rest of us, Maddox, Beezley and me, went by our last names. I'm always called Izzi anyway. Somebody asks me my name and I say 'Izzi' and they usually say 'Izzi what?' and I have to go through explaining how Izzi is my last name." For several weeks Izzi always addressed Maddox as "sir," a habit he couldn't get out of, especially during the short period that the five men stood watches. After the watches were abandoned, Izzi fell into addressing Maddox as Maddox, which made the Ensign feel more comfortable. Eventually Izzi called Maddox "Jimmy,'' as a fine, understand- ing friendship developed between the two men. Van der Slot, Beezley and Hoogendam for a while 46 called Maddox "Mr. Maddox," but after a while they, too, forsook formality. The sun beat unmercifully upon the raft. Izzi is naturally dark, and a person who under normal cir- cumstances is not burned by the sun. But he had been days in the water, and his skin had been soft- ened and bleached in it. He had on only a shirt. Van der Slot had a shirt, dungarees, and shorts underneath. Hoogendam had a shirt, a pair of dress pants, stockings and shoes. Beezley wore a shirt, a pair of shorts, and dungarees. Maddox wore only a pair of shorts and a shirt. "The afternoons felt like a year," Izzi said. "The guys were bleeding. We started bandaging the worst part of our skins. My legs and feet were open sores, and when we'd take the bandages off after a couple of days, they would take holes out of our skin. We put iodine on the worst parts, and then one day I spilled the iodine and it was gone. Pus would come out of the holes that got burned in our legs and feet, and our skin would peel and peel un- til the bottom of the raft looked like a chicken coop. That lasted a month and a half until we just sort of dried up." Izzi still has ugly scars on his legs and feet where there had been deep festering wounds caused by 47 sun and bumpings on the raft. Izzi and van der Slot suffered most from sunburn. Beezley and Hoogen- dam were fully clothed and had not been in the water as long as Maddox and Izzi. Maddox, who had a bad pneumonia record and a horror of damp- ness, had appropriated a cloth that was on the raft, sufficient to cover most of him. This cloth was to be a continual source of irritation to some of the others on the raft, especially van der Slot. "And there were the kid's shoes," Izzi said. "Hoo- gendam bought a pair of shoes in Africa for seven bucks, and they dried all out and hurt the hell out of him. He'd wear them anyway, and we'd tell him to throw them away. He'd say, 'These are a good pair of shoes, cost seven bucks. I can wear them in New York.' Then he would move around the raft and step on your feet and it would hurt you so much it would make you cry. It was two weeks before we got rid of those shoes for him. We threw them over- board." The raft was not built for any comfort, øonly for safety. The rather high ledges made it impossible to lie down on the deck, and at night, the five men had to work out a formal arrangement of how they would huddle together. One man would get down first, place his back and neck against one ledge, his
feet against the opposite, and since the space was so short, his knees would be high. The second man would get in a similar position facing him, and so on. If any man moved in the night, all were hurt. Izzi, months after the raft, still sleeps in a huddled position, unable to straighten himself out at night. And so it was that five relative strangers faced, although they did not know it then, months to- gether at sea. There were to be some bitter quarrels, and two deaths. An odd chance had placed the raft in an ocean current that leads into the Gulf Stream, and as Izzi was told once by Dr. Samuel van Valken- burg, noted geographer of Clark University, that North Equatorial Drift into which the raft had been swept would eventually have taken it to Europe. 49 CHAPTER V THE FIRST FEW WEEKS ON THE RAFT WERE DAYS OF hunger and pain for the men. Although van der Slot and Izzi were most seriously affected by sun- burn, all the men suffered the extreme pain that it brings. Hoogendam had been wounded when the ship was torpedoed. He did not know quite how it happened. He had been on the main deck watching some men playing shuffleboard when the first tor- pedo struck and knocked him clear into the water. He got an ugly, deep gash on the knee. He band- aged this every day, but it festered. The men were taking dips in the water during the days on the raft, and advised Hoogendam not to, but one day he did anyway, and after that the knee began to heal. The other men had somehow forgotten that salt water is usually healing for open wounds. Those first few days, although days of pain, were ones of rather high hope. The food and water were rationed so that the men were continually hungry and thirsty, especially during the first days, yet it 50 was an imposed self-discipline that would lead, they hoped, to rescue. The watches were pulled regu- larly, and each day a notch was made on an oar to tell the lapse of time. "The days were funny," Izzi. said. The mornings went by so quick, and the afternoons like years. We all waited for night to come so we could get our little piece of chocolate. The meals seemed like big ones, and we would try to make them last a long time, but they were usually over in two minutes." At night the men covered themselves with the canvas tarpaulin, doubling it under and over them so as to secure it safely. The last man to lie down had the duty of tying it, one that became painful as each movement cracked blisters and tore at unused muscles. Izzi, Maddox and van der Slot had life jackets, and Izzi and Maddox ripped theirs up, mak- ing pillows out of the kapok backs and sides. Izzi, with the help of van der Slot, made a pair of shorts out of the cloth on his jacket. "With a fly and every- thing," Izzi says. The men took stock of their equipment, and tried carefully to preserve it. There were a few sticks on board, two paddles, the lights, and two knives. The knives were the single-blade that Izzi had borrowed from one of the men who did not get off the bamboo 51 raft, and the second was Beezley's. Beezley was rather proud of having his jackknife with him, say- ing, "By God, it pays to carry a jackknife. On the other torpedoing, I was the only fellow to carry a knife, and it sure came in handy." The men saved the milk cans as they were used until everyone had a drinking cup. Izzi somehow was assigned the drinking cup that came with the raft's provisions, and he still treasures it, keeping it stored safely in his home at South Barre. The food ran out on November 18, the sixteenth day, and the men began looking wistfully at the birds which flew over them. Maddox insisted that it would be bad luck to grab one of the birds. "Wait until tomorrow," he would say whenever anyone spoke hungrily of fowl. This particular aversion of Maddox caused him probably to carry out an ex- ploit which has been given considerable attention in the press. Sharks were always somewhere in the vicinity of the raft. Every day each of the men spent a little time in the water with a rope around him which was held by the others. The men holding the rope kept a lookout for sharks, and when they saw a quick gray form approaching, they would jerk their companion back on the raft. Quite often the shark 52 would then continue his way on under the raft and out the other side. Maddox thought of making a lasso with the rope, dangling the noose in the water, and attempting to catch one that way. "We watched him for a couple of hours," Izzi said. "We told him, 'You won't get a shark that way.' We dangled our feet over the ledge of the raft, and a shark came by, and Maddox got him with the lasso. I don't think I intended using my feet as bait, like people said. It just sort of happened that way. "How we got that shark was a miracle. It was a big one, three feet long at least, and Maddox pulled the rope tight around his fins. It took all five of us to bring him in. We were scared he would bite one of us, and we shoved the handle of a paddle in his mouth. He flopped and fought, and we couldn't get a knife into him. His back was like rock. Finally we turned him over, and ripped him open with a knife, down the soft white belly he had. When we took the paddle out of his mouth, he had bitten off the end of it. "My gunnery officer said, I caught the shark, how about letting me have the heart?' We said okay, and took it out and gave it to him. The heart continued pulsing for minutes after it was removed, 53 and everybody waited for it to stop beating before piling in. We took the liver out for ourselves be- cause we had heard somewhere that it was good for you. It didn't look good, all gray with red spots, and we didn't know whether to eat it or not, but finally we cut it up, and some of the white meat in the kind of muscles in the liver was all right, tough but not so bad. Maddox held the heart for a long time. He said he had read somewhere of a man eating a heart while it was beating. "Then we cut off two big chunks of meat from the sides, and put them in the old food container for the next day. The next day came, and we looked at the shark. A beautiful aroma. The meat had turned color, and the smell was awful, like pork chops that are so old and rotten they change color. We tossed the stuff overboard, and just like the other fish did when we threw the entrails over the day before, the live sharks all grabbed the shark meat, like can- nibals.'' That was not to be the only disappointment that day. Ensign Maddox, of all the men on the raft, seemed to have been affected the most emotionally by the predicament they were in. He continually watched the horizon, and now and then would strike the ledges of the raft nervously with his fist, 54 like a man waiting for an overdue telephone call. The spoiling of the food this day seemed to heighten his impatience. He sat on the ledge of the raft, with the yellow cloth wrapped about him, his hand slapping rhyth- mically at the ledge. He stood suddenly, stared at the horizon for almost a full minute, and turned to the others and asked, "Am I going crazy, fellows? I think I see something." The others crowded to where he was. In the dis- tance was a speck, a ship. Maddox waved the yel- low cloth around his shoulder. He tired, and another man took his place, and when that one tired, an- other stood and waved the cloth. There were some flares aboard, and although it was daylight, they burned the flares, hoping the smoke and the strange red light might attract the lookout on the ship. "It looked as though it was turning around, as if to come toward us," Izzi said. "A guy would wave the flag, get tired, sit down, and begin to cry. We were sure the ship had turned around, but then we might have turned around and didn't notice it. But it went on, and on, and we could see it was a big freighter, and then it disappeared. "It didn't make us feel so terribly bad, though, be- cause we knew then we were in a shipping lane. 55 Maybe, we said, the ship will radio and a plane will come out and pick us up. We felt good and we prayed and talked about how if that ship had picked us up, right now we'd be warm and all dressed up." The men looked hopefully at the sea and sky the rest of that day, and as they crammed them- selves that night, five of them, in a space smaller than a single bed, they talked of how they would soon be in New York. The next day all the men kept watch. They had been out three weeks, had had no food in two days, and little food before that. They were weak, and yet buoyed by a hope that kept them moving rest- lessly. "Late that afternoon, Maddox saw another thing and it was a ship," Izzi said. "We brought out flares and the yellow cloth and a Dutch flag we had and waved. 'Take it easy, take it easy, don't get nervous,' we'd tell each other. This one was not as close as the other one, but we could see big boxes on deck, and parts of the ship painted with red lead. "Just like the other one, she kept right on going, and we guys sat down and cried. We were dis- gusted. 'How can they miss us?' we asked. 'If they had a good watch on that ship they certainly would see us. What the hell kind of a crew have they got on that ship?' 56 "One of the guys said, 'Maybe they think we are a submarine.' We answered him, 'What the hell, does this look like a submarine?'" The disappointment gave way to anger, and then the anger gave way to disappointment. The water was low, and there was no food. The five men had spent three weeks on a rocking, pitching raft, made of slats and sharp ledges that cut and bruised the bones already showing in the men. The day after the disappointment of the second ship, the men began talking of Thanksgiving, which would come the following day. "We talked about Thanksgiving in the States," Izzi said. "The day be- fore, we prayed at least give us rain or something to eat. "Thanksgiving Day, we couldn't keep our mind off it. At noon, we talked about people in the States sitting down for some turkey and some fruit. And then at about two o'clock, we talked about now the people in the States have finished eating, and are sitting around, all full of food, and are smoking and talking. "Then, I was the first to notice it, a big bird came flying around the raft. I grabbed for it and missed, and then it rested in the water right near us. The kid, Hoogendam, wanted to dive over after it, but 57 we were afraid sharks would get him. He kept talk- ing, and so we held him by the ankles, and he jumped and grabbed it, and he fell half way out of the raft. It made a squawk, and we had it. It pecked at Hoogendam's hands but he held on, and we dragged him and the bird into the raft. "It was just about the size of a chicken. It was a brown bird, and we wrung its neck, pulled the feathers out, and divided it up into five parts. It was the biggest bird we ever did get, and it came on Thanksgiving. Maddox said, 'The Lord is still with us.' The bird had red meat, just like a chicken, and it tasted wonderful. We felt a lot better after that. "Other times we caught several birds, but none of them as big as that first one. Most of the birds would fish all day, and at night they would be tired, and sometimes they would rest in the water just like a duck, and sometimes they'd even make a noise, wrack, wrack, just like a duck. At night, sometimes, a bird would light on the canvas, and the fellow the closest to the outside would whisper, 'There's a bird.' He'd sneak out from under the canvas, and crawl across the rest of us, reach out, and wham! he'd usually have him. The most we got that way was two one night, and we got about twenty-five 58 in all. They were about the size of sparrows, and each one was divided five ways, even if it meant that the piece you got was about the size of a quarter. "If we got the bird at night, we'd save it for breakfast, and if we got it in the daytime we'd usu- ally divide it up and eat it right then." They saved intestines from the birds, on Izzfs suggestion, and used them for fishing. They would dangle an innard until a fish had swallowed part of it, jerk it, and bring the fish into the raft. Most of the catch were about the size of small sardines, and one day Izzi and Hoogendam got nearly eighty of the tiny fish that way. Occasionally sharks would drive schools of tiny fish under the raft, and the men would reach between the slats on the bottom and snatch the fish. "Me and the two Dutchmen," Izzi said, "got so we ate the fish, bones and all, but Beezley and my gunnery officer wouldn't eat the bones, and some- times they would give the bones to us, and we would chew on them at night. That was my idea, and I found that when I couldn't sleep, it felt kind of good to chew on the bones; made saliva come. It was something like the peanuts and pretzels they give you in a beer parlor." 59 CHAPTER VI THE DAYS WENT ON. THE MEN WERE OUT SUCH AN incredible time that the chronology of their ad- venture seems of no importance. Izzi speaks of cer- tain events as happening "a couple of weeks before we were picked up," or "about a month and a half after we got on the raft." One of the few tales com- parable to that of Izzi's raft was that of Tapscott and Widdicombe, two British boys, who spent seventy-three days in a long boat, and thought they had been out fifty days. When Izzi and his remain- ing companions were picked up, it was found they had estimated their time almost accurately. Sometimes the men talked, and much of the time they sat silently, looking at the bottom of the raft, or out to sea. Izzi says there was much to admire in the South Atlantic. "Sometimes you would see fish fighting, great green fish that looked like drag- ons. Sometimes the sharks would fight the dragons, and it was wonderful to watch. Once a great big blue fish jumped twenty feet out of the water. 60 "I'll never forget, either, a bird on a piece of cork that drifted along in the current with us for a while. This bird, about the size of a blue jay, landed on the piece of cork about the second week, and tagged along with us for a couple of days. The cork would bob up and down and the bird with it. A shark got its eye on the bird, and would come up after it, flipping over on his back with his mouth open. The bird would just flutter up a couple of feet and after the shark was gone, would come down on the cork again. I watched it for a hell of a time. It was fun to watch. If it had come close to the raft, we'd have grabbed the bird, instead of the shark. "The sunsets and sunrises were the most beautiful you have ever seen, red and purple and all the colors in the world. I never did get tired of those sunsets, even if it did mean night and cold was com- ing. At night, there'd be phosphorescent fish around us, making streaks and flashes. I remember the first time I'd ever seen it. I was on watch on the ship, and I saw those flashes in the water, and I got wor- ried, and so I called for my officer. He was down eating and talking with the purser and the Chinese doctor he always ate with, and he didn't come up, and so I called down again for him. 'Look at those lights, sir,' I told him. 'Oh, that's phosphorus,' he 61 said. He never did kid me about it, though, but if some of the other seamen had heard about it, they probably would have razzed hell out of me." At night there were stars, and it seemed to Izzi that they followed one big star most of the time. None of the men, strangely, knew much about stars, and Maddox kept saying that when he got back on shore he was going to study astronomy and geography. "We always tried to head west, or toward what we thought was west," Izzi said, "although you couldn't head that raft much of any place. We had a sort of sail, that piece of yellow cloth, and some- times we'd put it up on sticks, but my gunnery of- ficer would take it down and wrap up in it. "A lot of the time we would argue about where we were and where we were heading, and one fel- low would say we were going into the South Amer- ican shore, and another would say we were headed for the Caribbean, but I usually didn't give a damn. I wanted to get picked up." And then, about the second month, they hit the rainy season. Squalls and storms would strike them, pitch the raft, and leave the men in sodden misery. They would huddle under the canvas, argue bitterly about who had the driest spot, and each shift a 62 man made would cause pain or acute discomfort to the others. The rain brought on more arguments about which part of the world they were in. Izzi in- sists he wasn't particularly interested, living only for the hope of rescue, and having a slightly cynical belief that they were heading back to Africa. Actually, they were drifting northeast a few hun- dred miles off and almost parallel to the ellipsoidal coast of South America. At one time or another they quite possibly drifted across the outflux of the Amazon, where fresh water is carried hundreds of miles out to sea. If they did, they did not know it. Not one of the men, once he had gotten on the raft, ever made an attempt to drink sea-water. As far as the Amazon's fresh water goes, Dr. van Valkenburg told Izzi that he would have found the water brackish and unhealthful anyway. It is probably true that only a naturalist should have anything to do with birds as far as empiric judgments are concerned. Naturalists, who are great producers of odd facts, tell of slight, slim-muscled birds flying ten thousand miles or so come spring, merely to make love. Birds continually caused op- timism among the five men on the raft. A tiny bird, with no web feet at all, would come twittering along in search of microscopic fish, and Izzi and his 63 friends would be positive they were near land. "The birds would come out in the morning opposite from the sun," Izzi said, "and they would go back with the sun at night, the same way they came from, you see, and we would kill ourselves trying to pad- die after them. You can't paddle a raft. You got to put one leg on the ledge, one leg in the water, and paddle it like it was a canoe." An eight-by-nine raft is quite unlike a canoe. The small birds caused false optimism because of the natural assumption of most men that small things cannot do much. "We used to say to each other," Izzi continued, "how can a little bird like that fly very far? We must be near land. "And another thing, even a medium-sized bird, once you get the feathers off, is a little bit of a thing. Once we caught a bird the size of a robin, and we all got pieces about the size of a quarter out of it, same around, same thickness. Maddox got an idea. We had matches, and he never did like the idea of eating things raw, and so he decided to cook it. He took a match, and we were all interested. The old man, van der Slot, put his arms around him so the match wouldn't go out, and Maddox lit one. It went out, and then another. He lit another match and it 64
stayed lit, and he held it under the little piece of bird he had until the meat was black. Then he chewed at it. 'How is it?' we asked him. 'Pretty good, he said taking a tiny bite with the front of his teeth. 'Let's have some of it,' We asked him; we had already eaten our shares raw. 'It's so little,' he said, and ate it. He never tried it again, and we didn't either." The matches the men found in the provisions were-probably the source of one of their most bit- ter disappointments. One watertight can of matches was among the food and water in the hatch. There was also another watertight can which had an al- most irremovable cover. "We thought," Izzi said, "that there must be cigarettes in this can. Else why would they put matches on the raft? The cover on this can had one of those little tiny handles that you can only get two fingers on. Our hands were soft and weak from the water, and we hit the handle with sticks and everything we could find. We finally get it open, and what do we find? Flares. I suppose we needed flares, but we were sure disappointed there wasn't any cigarettes." There was a pair of scissors in the first-aid kit of the raft, and for some time this was used to trim 65 beards. Seventeen-year-old Hoogendam, who re- sented his youth in the manner that only a boy do- ing a man's work can, for once hid his pride and acted as barber. Van der Slot grew a luxuriant beard of which he was proud. Maddox, one of the fortu- nate men whose beard grows fully, closely and without aberrations, had the handsomest one on the raft. Izzi and Beezley grew whiskers, but not ex- ceptional ones. Izzi suffered the hirsute caprice of youth. He grew a beard, but practically no mus- tache. As the months went by, the men paid less and less attention to their beards and hair, and eventu- ally used their hair as pillows and protection against the sun. One of the reasons for giving up attention to beard and hair was their needing the scissors for more important uses than vanity. There were sev- eral sticks on board, put there for use as guys should the men want to use a canvas as a shade, and it was decided to break the scissors, tie a blade to a stick, and use it as a spear for fish. This idea, as were most of the good ones, was that of Maddox. Hoogendam was the best man with the spears, and got several flat fish that appeared near the raft. "The kid was damn good at spearing fish," Izzi said, "but he couldn't tell us much about them, even though he 66 had been a fisherman." As it happened, there were few ichthyological discussions on the raft, the men feeling, rightly, that the main thing about a fish was to get it so it could be eaten. 67 CHAPTER VII THE MEN ON THE RAFT TALKED QUITE A LOT OF THEIR past lives, especially of the things they had eaten at one time or another. Sometimes the discussion had a rapt, descriptive quality, and sometimes it fell off into argument, especially when a man would tell of what he was going to eat the first time he hit shore after he was rescued. Much of the time these talks took on a lyricism, evocated not only by din- ners but by the circumstances surrounding them, of traditions, and of the events leading to meals. Beezley used to talk about Missouri. He was from Hannibal, and it seems that there the hardier boys were trained in the tradition of the town's great citizens, Mark Twain's Tom Sawyer and Huck Finn. In any case, Beezley would tell of sneaking out of school, robbing a garden, sliding down to a thicket on the Mississippi and putting into a rowboat. Sometimes he would do this alone, but quite often he would have along some hearty companions of about his own age at that time-twelve or thirteen. 68 They would get into a rowboat and row out into the river, drop lines and hope for a channel catfish, a fish that is looked down upon in the East but hap- pens to be one oœ the most succulent in the world. Sometimes, after catching a measly pickerel, Beezley and his friends would come ashore and find a chicken somewhere. They would boil it in a pot with vegetables, and have a meal. Beezley would tell about this as an introduction to a point. That, he would say, was life in Missouri and it was a fine life. However, he supposed, if he were put ashore the next day, he would walk into a good restaurant and get some southern fried chicken. Or, maybe, he would find himself a Chi- nese joint, say in San Francisco, and have some chow mein. Beezley changed his mind from day to day. Chow mein one day, southern fried chicken the next. Van der Slot and Hoogendam, with perverse Dutch humor perhaps, talked of horse meat. Horse meat, van der Slot told Izzi, is the finest dish a man can get in Holland. Beef is all right, and so is lamb and pork (van der Slot was talking about a time before the tragic days of 1940), but horse meat is really delicious. Izzi dismissed most of this talk as frivolous, although he still thinks van der Slot likes 69 horse meat, and wonders if he got any after he was rescued. Maddox, a man from the Middle West, gave his tradition of meat and potatoes away to poetry. He talked about Smorgasbord. Izzi had never eaten at a Smorgasbord. "He told me," Izzi said, "that it goes round and round, and there is fish, all kinds, and cheese, all kinds, and all kinds of meat, like salami, liverwurst, and bologna, and you keep going back to it until you got all you want, and you heap your plate high with all you want, bread and stuff, even salads." Izzi, however, with a brisk Italian-American ap- petite, discussed what he was going to do in a fine free verse. He remembers what he said. It was about how to make good spaghetti. "Well, you can have spaghetti with either chicken or with pork chops for the meat sauce," he told Maddox. "If you go in to a store and buy five or six pork chops, don't let him cut it in pieces, but let him cut it so it hangs together, just cut it part way down, you see. You take the pork chops home, and you tie them together, but before you tie them to- gether you stuff in cheese, celery, spices, onions, garlic, bread crumbs, parsley, and then you tie it so the stuffing won't fall out. You put this in a pan, 70 and then you get a couple of jars of tomatoes, and you throw it in with the meat and maybe you might add a little water. You let it simmer on the fire, and you taste it once in a while and you add salt and pepper. All right, with you and your wife, and your mother and father, that will be four, and so maybe two quarts, three quarts of tomatoes, so the pan's half full, and if it doesn't get dark red in a couple of hours or so, good and blood red, you take down some tomato paste off the shelf and you put that in. By this time it ought to be red from the blood in the meat and red from the tomatoes. You taste and you put in a little salt, and when that's done, you put it to one side. Then you get a pan of water and a half or a whole pound of spaghetti, and when the water is boiling you put in the spaghetti and you stir it so it won't stick together, but don't you cook it too long or it gets too soft and slimy. Then you strain the water off the spaghetti, and you take the meat out of the other pan and put it aside. Then you put the spaghetti in a big spaghetti bowl, and then you pour the sauce from the meat over it, and if you have enough, you leave a little of the sauce to pour over the pork chops, which you serve separately. It goes the same for chicken." Izzi's description won his friends to the admission 71 that the first thing they Would have when they all got back was a dinner party with spaghetti the first night, with Izzi going into the kitchen with in- structions; the second night they would find a Smorgasbord place and end up with filet mignon on Maddox's suggestion; the third night they would have either chicken or chow mein, and on the re- maining evenings, go with the Dutchmen to some place where there was meat and potatoes and much butter cake. The above decision, a true one, was arrived at after weeks of discussion, and before it was made, was put to a vote. Izzi usually makes a distinction between the talk of meals and things to eat. The long passages, such as Izzi's discourse on spaghetti, were on meals and primarily philosophic exercises, distinguished from burning issues which are best described as things I would like to have right now. Beezley, speaking of his immediate impulse, said he would like to have an Oh Henry bar, with nuts, nougat, and chocolate. Maddox wanted chocolate cake, precisely as his young wife baked it and preferably by her hand. Hoogendam wanted any form of candy. Van der Slot dreamed of apple pie, or, sharing his vision somewhat with Izzi, chocolate cream pie. Some- 72 times van der Slot would talk for almost an hour about the kind of cookies which were made in Hol- land. Izzi wanted a Milky Way, a chewy candy bar of chocolate and caramel. All of these men, even young Hoogendam and the rather intellectual En- sign Maddox, were lusty, convivial fellows, and their dreams were not of beer or a short whiskey, but of sweets. "That talking about food was good," Izzi says. "You talk about it, and you think about it, and your mouth gets watery, and Jeez, it helps!" There was also a competitive feeling about food. "I talked one day to the kid," Izzi said, "about eclairs. He didn't know what an eclair was. I ex- plained it to him; an eclair is a great long bun, and on top of it is all chocolate and inside of it is all cream. He didn't get me on what I meant by cream, and so I explained to him it was custard. The kid was crazy for custard; he always talked about custard. Then I tell him about my folks going into town, say on a Saturday, and they gave me a dime when I was a kid, and I spent it on two eclairs. Well, Hoogendam chal- lenged me to a race, after he figured out what I meant. We go into New York, and we see who can eat the most eclairs. Whoever loses would pay. "I said when we got to New York we would go 73 into a five-and-dime and get some fig squares. In a five-and-dime they are always most fresh, and we will walk down Broadway, I said, and eat them in front of everybody. My gunnery officer couldn't quite recall what fig squares were, but after a while he said they called them Newtons out where he used to live, Lafayette, Indiana. "We didn't talk much about drinks. Once in a while we did, but it was mainly just talking. I said once when I get to my home town I am going over to my cousin's barroom-Martone's-and line up all the drinks I would ever want, from water down to whiskey, and drink them all. I haven't done that yet. We didn't talk much about girls, either. I thought a lot about my sisters, and my gunnery officer talked a lot about his wife, but that wasn't the same as talking about women in general. "The one thing I resolved on that raft was that if I ever got back I never would be without a choco- late bar." When Izzi said this, he patted his pockets. There wasn't any candy bar. He wears the tight jumper and pants of a United States seaman. A Milky Way might bulge, and quite possibly melt. They never stopped thinking about food. Even 74 when their conversations were on some other topic, their minds were on food and gave their talk an absent-minded quality. When they were silent, they were usually thinking about food in all its forms. Izzi's twentieth birthday fell on December 8, 1942, and for a week before it occurred he thought about it. "I told them I never had been missing from home on my birthday, and here I am out on a raft," Izzi said. "I used to always get a cake and gifts, and people would drop into the house and my old man would serve wine and beer, and my mom would always have a big feed. "The whole four of them came over and cheered me up, and put their hands on my shoulder, and said, 'Never worry, Izzi, we'll be in New York or Brazil for your birthday, and you can send a tele- gram home, or maybe even a phone call.' "'How are we going to be picked up in one day?' I'd say, and they would tell me, 'Never forget it takes a Ship only half an hour to cross over the horizon and come over and pick us up. We were always saying that 'it takes only half an hour for a boat to cross that horizon and come to us.' They kept cheering me up. 'When the boat rescues us to- morrow,' they'd say, 'we'll tell the ship's cook it's 75 your birthday and he'll bake you a cake. If they pick us up today, we'll tell him tomorrow's your birthday and he'll bake a cake anyway.' "The next day was my birthday. We were in the rainy season, and it was dark, and cloudy, and cold, and it started raining. We all went under the can- vas, and I took the outside position so I could watch out and see if a ship was coming. Hours went by and we still talked about my birthday and it rained and rained. It rained the hardest on my birthday that it ever did when we were out there. They tried to cheer me, and van der Slot said, 'Well, we'll be picked up tomorrow, and we'll tell the ship's cook that yesterday was your birthday.' "In the afternoon it rained so hard I couldn't see more than a few feet in front of me, and I cried, my head out in the rain, and tears rolling down out of my eyes because I knew if a ship came by they couldn't see us." Ensign Maddox, the day after Izzi's birthday, an- nounced his thirtieth birthday as December 12. "Maddox said to van der Slot," Izzi said, "that if we get picked up on his birthday, December 12, and that if van der Slot smokes a pipe, he will buy him the most expensive pipe he could find. I told Hoogendam that if we get picked up that day I will 76 buy him a ring, and he said he would buy me a ring, too. "December 12 came, and we were still on the raft, pouring rain, not quite as hard as on my birthday, but pouring just the same. Maddox said he had never missed a birthday either with his family or with his wife. His wife always gave him something, some kind of a present that day, he said. We tried to cheer him up, but he felt very bad about it, and a lot of the time he would just look out to sea, and hit his hand against the ledge like he was waiting for something. "Then when we were still trying to cheer up my gunnery officer, he kind of laughed, and said that before he sailed he had gone to a fortune teller and she had told him that he would never live to see his thirtieth birthday. 'When I get back,' he told us, 'I am going to go and see that old witch and tell her how wrong she was.' My gunnery officer was so dis- couraged we had to sit beside him all the time and pat him on the shoulder and say how nice it would be if he was picked up tomorrow. At least, we told him, we got water." It rained all the month of December, and though the weather was relatively warm, the men were chilled all the time. Some of them had bad colds, 77 and Beezley was becoming very ill. The canvas rotted, and when the men huddled under it, water would drip in on them. They had rigged up a sys- tem whereby water drained off the canvas into the water container, but knowing that the rain might stop at any moment, the water rations were continued. The men were gaunt, and their bones stuck out grotesquely, and they ached in the bones. They would give each other rub-downs to try and keep their emaciated muscles functioning. There would be days when a man might spend hours preoccu- pied, feeling the muscles of his leg. When rub- downs were given, the men had to do it in shifts because no man was strong enough to work his hands for more than a minute or a minute and a half. Then, about the middle of December, they spotted a third ship. "It was a cloudy day and my gunnery officer saw it first; he was always first to see the ships," Izzi said. "We saw smoke at first and then the ship; it must have been an old coal burner. We had only one flare left, and it was wet and we couldn't use it. We waved our flag and they didn't see us. We took turns waving the flag, and we were so weak that when a guy stood up it took two of us to hold him, and the guy would only wave the flag 78 two or three times and then he would have to get down again. "When that third ship disappeared, it was awful. We all slumped down and cried. We had always said the third ship wouldn't pass us up, and here this one had gone right on by, away out there in the distance. We didn't talk much about it, we just cried and sobbed, and we were very discouraged." 79 CHAPTER VIII THE NEXT HOLIDAY WAS CHRlSTMAS. THE CANVAS ON the raft was rotten. Beezley was getting sicker, and he had to be moved by the men, and they were so weak it was a fearful, painful task for the four com- paratively well men and for Beezley. The thought of Christmas was probably more de- pressing for Izzi than it was for the others. Basil, christened Biagio Dominic Izzi, had grown up in South Barre, Massachusetts, in a lovely old New England section of colonial architecture and woods and hills. The entire community consisted of Barre, Barre Plains, and South Barre, with the Italians liv- ing mostly in South Barre, and Poles and old New Englanders living in other sections. South Barre is owned by the Barre Wool Comb- ing Company, Ltd., and most of the Italians worked there. Like most Italians, these people are friendly, healthy persons, and the life Izzi led in South Barre was a pretty fine one. He hunted in the hills, got in fights and was nicknamed "Tuffy," had dates, and 80 tried, often, to sneak out with his father's car. "When I thought of Christmas, I was very sad," he said. "We always had a big celebration at our house on Christmas. The table would be piled high with food, and there would be wine, beer, cordials and whiskey, and no matter what time of night you came in on Christmas Eve, there Would be my dad and mom at the table, talking to each other. They would talk to each other all through the night, and people would drop in and talk, and there would be presents for the kids. "I could see this Christmas at home. It would be different. There hadn't been any deaths in our fam- ily around Barre for years, and with Italian people a death in the family is a very sad thing; they seem to feel it awfully deep. I could see there wouldn't be any celebration at home. Everybody would be in black, and the kids would be quiet, and my mom would be crying. The Forgnolis and the Whighams, and the Martones would all be trying to comfort them, but I could see my family, all in black." As it happened, Izzi was right, and Christmas at the Izzis' was even more bleak than he had pic- tured. His uncle, Dominic Martone, Mrs. Izzi's brother, had died in November. Basil had worked for Mr. Martone in his filling station, and helped 81 Mrs. Martone around the house, and had fed the Martone chickens and pigs when the Martone boys weren't at home. With a capacity for grief as great as for joy, Izzi's many relatives in South Barre were struck hard by the death of Martone. The day after his funeral, Mrs. Izzi received a formal telegram from the Navy: "We regret to inform you that your son, Seaman Second Class Basil Dominic Izzi, is missing in action." The following two months his mother spent are days that Izzi does not like to think about. Mrs. Izzi is a plump, tiny little woman, with an unlined round face, and a gay, shy smile. She normally spends twelve or sixteen hours a day in her kitchen, where she has two stoves, and where the life of her large family centers. There are six other children in the family: Mary and Angelina, who are married; Car- melIa and Mamie, and Santo and Kenneth. Izzi's father, Dominic, is a small man who man- ages to combine a sternness of disposition with a liking for people. He and Basil used to hunt to- gether, and he used to strap his children when they didn't behave, and dangled the strap in front of them when they threatened to disobey. "I like the life I had," Izzi said once. "I started to work when I was nine, cutting wood for my father. He'd give 82 me fifteen cents, and I'd spend five of it for candy and a dime for a movie. I liked being outdoors, and after I quit high school and went to work, I used to get up early so I could go hunting for a while in the morning." Izzi had a great reputation among his family and friends for his ability to sleep any time and any place. When he was a child, he would disappear for several hours, and his mother would turn the town upside down looking for him, have searching parties out, and likely as not, he would be found sound asleep under his bed. The Izzi house is on a hill above Power Mill Pond, and Izzi had a spot near it where he used to sleep of an afternoon and evening. Izzi was a good ball player, playing at shortstop and second, and ending up as catcher on the local team. He still has his uniform which, when on leave, he looks at wistfully as he does a camel's hair coat he bought shortly before enlisting in the Navy. After Izzi's second year in high school, he went to work, when his father, who is in charge of a group in the combing mill, became ill from a back ail- ment which still plagues him. Izzi worked for a while inside, asked to be transferred outside, and then quit when he was asked to clean a sewer. 83 After he left the combing mill, he went over to Barre and got a job with Charles G. Allen & Com- pany, a foundry and machine shop which makes high-speed drills. Izzi, who is only five feet five, and then weighed 145 pounds, got a job breaking up pig iron with a sixteen-pound sledge. Having an amazing strength and co-ordination, he rather liked this job. "Fair wages," he says. He thought of getting in the Marines, and think- ing he wasn't tall enough, he joined the Navy, going over to the enlistment center in Springfield with his friend, Rosario Mastronado, whom he was to meet in Africa. "All our friends were going in the draft, and so we thought we'd try the Navy," Izzi says. Izzi thought of all these things while he was on the raft. One night he dreamed of pine trees, of the kind of pine trees that stretch from the back yard of his home over the hills of Massachusetts. "I was sad to think of them, even in my dreams," he said. "That's the most beautiful country in the world, and there are bass and horn pout in the ponds, and rabbits, grouse, squirrel, and even some deer in the woods." Izzi thought about a lot of things on Christmas Eve, the fifty-second day on the raft. "I thought of that pipe I had got my dad, and those pillow cases 84 for Mother, and the bracelets for the girls and the knives for the boys," he said, "and I wondered about those butterfly trays I had taken for Italiano. "Christmas Eve we all got to talking about Christmas, and I told about how for a couple of weeks before Christmas every year we'd roam all over the hills looking for just the right tree to put up, and then how either Dad or I would cut it down, bring it into the house, and the whole family would help decorate the tree, and eat big bowls of figs and dates and nuts that Mom would put on the living room table. "My gunnery officer led Christmas carols that night. He knew all the words, and Beezley and I knew most of them. The Dutchmen knew the tunes, and sometimes they would use the Dutch words. We sang Silent Night, Little Town of Bethlehem, Adeste Fidelis, and ones like those. It sounded kind of nice, with the stars shining bright as hell, and the water was calm and reflected back the stars. "Nick and the old man told us about Christmas in Holland, where they celebrate two days. We thought that was a swell idea, and we said if we were picked up Christmas Day we sure would cele- brate both the twenty-fifth and the twenty-sixth. Christmas Day was all right, although it rained a lit- 85 tle, and all of us were sad and pretty quiet. Mad- dox just looked out toward the horizon, and now and then he'd hit the ledge with his hand. The next holiday was New Year's, and we prayed we would be picked up by then." There were no discoveries or rediscoveries of God on this raft. Izzi was a Catholic and the others were Protestants, and all of them prayed. Maddox had studied for the ministry for a while before deciding to become a teacher, and when this was learned, the men asked him to lead prayers. He prayed aloud each evening for several weeks in a sort of formal prayer service, and then gave it up. Maddox ex- plained he didn't like to lead prayers, and everyone was a little relieved, feeling that the prayers un- masked too greatly the hopes and fears that were in all their hearts. After that they each prayed their own way. Some- times a man would say aloud, "Oh God, help us tomorrow." If he caught a fish the next day he prob- ably felt his prayers had been answered. They be- lieved in God, and their belief was no stronger or weaker as the days went by. Izzi would say an Our Father and two or three Hail Marys each evening, and the others also said the Lord's Prayer or ones of their own devising. 86 In addition to prayers, Ensign Maddox conducted a rather odd story hour for Nicko Hoogendam for a few evenings. Hoogendam had a liking for, of all things, bedtime stories. Maddox told Nicko about the Three Bears, the Three Little Pigs, Red Riding Hood, and others. Nick, who normally acted like a young man of the world, asked for more. Mad- dox tried to think of all he could and finally said he would be damned if he would tell any more kid stories. Nick and Case van der Slot quite often talked in Dutch to each other, and sometimes quarreled bitterly in the language, somewhat mystifying the others. Izzi said that one argument came up, he thinks, over Nick's saying he wished he were an American and that he was going to be one after the war. This hurt van der Slot, a proud Hollander. The Dutchmen, too, would argue over the merits of their homes. Van der Slot was from Rotterdam and Hoogendam was from Vlaardingen. Van der Slot, be- fore the war, had sailed a lot in Dutch luxury ships, and he talked sometimes of places all over the world -in Java, Australia, India, China and Europe, 87 CHAPTER IX ABOUT THE END OF THE FIRST MONTH, ENSIGN MAD- dox, who had read considerably, thought all the men on the raft should write their names on the out- side of the flare can, and the date they were tor- pedoed, November 2. "He said that then in case we died," Izzi explained, "our names would be on the can, and if the raft were ever found, or if it drifted ashore some place, why then our names would be there, and our families would know what became of us. "My gunnery officer put his name and address down; Hoogendam put his name and address down, and Beezley put his down. Then only me and Case were left. We were scratching the names on the can with a knife, and Beezley handed the knife to me, and I handed it to Case. I didn't want to write my name down on that flare can. I wasn't going to die. I didn't want to die, and I didn't want to think of dying! I wanted to live, and I wanted to think about that. 88 "I didn't want these other guys to see how I felt, though. I didn't want to admit to them that I was afraid to admit I was going to die. Well, van der Slot sliced his name into the can, and when he fin- ished, I said, 'There isn't any more room,' and I never did write my name down on that can. After a few weeks, the salt water washed off the names on the can, anyway, but I was always glad my name wasn't there." Beezley was the first man to become seriously ill. From the beginning, both he and Maddox had bloody urine, which seemed to be the first sign that all was not well with a man. As a rule, the men re- lieved themselves of urine about twice a day, but each of them had only two bowel movements the entire twelve weeks. Beezley began weakening after the third week on the raft. The raw birds and the fish seemed to upset him, and he would gag, try to vomit and couldn't, and would hiccough and retch for an entire day. Sometimes he would lie in one cramped position for days, and the men would have to move him, help him relieve himself. Then he would rally, and speak feebly and logically to his companions. After six weeks or so, he became blind in one eye, and later began to lose his hearing and the sight of the other 89 eye. "We would hold up four fingers in front of him," Izzi said, "and say, 'How many fingers I got up, Beezley?' and he'd say 'two.' During the day he tried to keep his eyes covered all the time, and it hurt him terribly to open his eyes. "He had high cheek bones, and his face just sunk, just fell away until it looked awful. When the third ship spoiled, when it didn't stop, then he began to just fall away. If we caught a bird or a fish and gave him a piece, he would spit it out. The last two or three weeks he never moved, and at night when we wanted to put him under the canvas, we would have to pick him up, and we were weak too. It gave him awful pain. We'd say, 'Come on, Beez- ley, let's get under the canvas.' He'd scream, 'Don't touch me. You are trying to hurt me! Let me alone, please! What are you trying to do, kill me? When I get you guys on shore, I'll kill you!' "It went on like that, and then he was almost blind and deaf, and he started talking about people we didn't know, and asking for cigarettes and candy. He'd say, 'I know there are some Lucky Strikes on the shelf, and you guys are hiding them from me.' And then he'd go on about Harry, and other people we didn't know. 'Why don't you help me, Harry?' Or he'd say, 'Please, Alice, why don't 90 you help me? I'm over here.' And then he'd say he didn't want to die, he didn't want to die. "On the sixty-sixth morning, when we woke up, the old man asked me how Beezley was. He'd been groaning all day before and most of the night- mmmmm mmmmm, like that. He was next to me, and I looked at him, and his hands were out in front of him, clutched like he was grabbing for some- thing, and his teeth were all showing, and the whites of his eyes. He was stiff, and there was a funny smell. "We knew he was dead, but we watched him for a couple of hours, kind of hoping, I guess, that maybe he would move, and then we were sure he was dead and we took off his dungarees. He hadn't been able to control his urine the last few days, and they were filthy. We wanted to wait until night to bury him, but then, after looking at him just lying there for a few more hours, we decided not to wait. "I am a Catholic, the only one on board, and I said prayers to myself, and the others said some prayers aloud. Maddox said the main prayer. He said, 'He is probably going to a better spot, may he rest in peace.' "And we buried him at sea. It took the four of us to roll him overboard, and after he had splashed 91 in, we didn't look at him, but just sat and waited and looked out to sea away from him." Izzi took Beezley's wallet to return to his family, and a cameo ring his girl had given him six years before. In the wallet were some American bills, some foreign coins, and Beezley's dog tag. "I put the wallet with the ring inside it in the flare can so it wouldn't be washed overboard," Izzi said. "Then we tied his dungarees to a rope and le{t them out in the water to wash all night. The next morning the dungarees were hung up on a paddle and dried, and then they were given to Maddox, who had no trousers, and by this time was beginning to be ill, too." Beezley's death was not unexpected, because he had been ill since the early weeks of the journey, but it was a shock. The men were so weak they could hardly stand unaided, and then for no longer than a few seconds. They had talked about death, usually dispassionately, but always with an edge of fear: Beezley's death brought death home to them, and it showed them how they, too, would die, not quickly, but slowly, in a half-delirious coma, in their own filth, and not knowing what was happening to them. On the sixty-seventh day, van der Slot and Mad- 92 dox quarreled, as they had been doing for many weeks. Maddox, when he came on the raft, had taken the small piece of cloth which was intended as a sail or for making a sunshade or windbreak on the raft. He was dressed no worse than Izzi, but he did not have the younger man's physique, and, too, he had his bad pneumonia record. When Beezley's dungarees were handed over to Maddox, van der Slot said, "All right, now you have the dungarees, why not let us have the sail?" "Maddox argued a little bit about it," Izzi said, "telling us he was cold, but the old man said he'd either have to give up the dungarees or the sail, and so he gave us the sail and we slept under it at night." The argument about the piece of sail cloth had gone on for weeks, and there were days when van der Slot would sit and glare at Maddox for hours. Some of the times, especially when it wasn't raining, Maddox was given his choice oœ giving up the cloth, or of sleeping on the ledge of the raft exposed to the weather and sea. He would choose the ledge. Another source of bitterness was the positions the men would take each night when they went to sleep. They were supposed to rotate each evening, no man having the same place in the raft two nights in a row. They called the positions by numbers from 93 one to five, and one, at the back of the raft, was the favored one, being driest. Izzi and Hoogendam, one day in the rainy season of the second month, got in a fight about it. "The kid said it was his turn to have the dry spot," Izzi says, "and I said it was my turn and that he had had it the night before. He said I was lying and that he wouldn't move from it. I drew back to hit him, but Maddox and the old man grabbed me, and so the kid and I said we would fight it out the first thing when we got on land. If there weren't any boxing gloves around, we'd settle it with our bare fists." Beezley, in the two months before he sank into unconsciousness, almost drove lzzi insane. Beezley, because he came from Hannibal, Missouri, where the talk is Middle Western with a faint tinge of the South, used the form "thataway." "He used that- away all the time," Izzi said, "until I thought I'd go nuts. He would say something was 'over thataway,' or he'd say, 'don't shove me thataway,' and it got on my nerves." The organization on the raft eventually became communal with no one person having any particular authority over the others, nor any one person lead- ing the others through innate qualities of leadership which are supposed to reveal themselves in some 94 men in such circumstances. It is well that this was true. The raft could not be sailed or guided; it had to drift with ocean currents, and a too forceful char- acter in such a situation might have caused his com- panions to die from sheer irritation. For a while Maddox, a commissioned officer and by rules of the sea a person to respect, was looked upon as boss, and that in time stopped, not through any weaken- ing on Maddox's part or any lack of discipline in the others, but merely because it was inconvenient. Beezley, Hoogendam, and van der Slot spent so much time contending with one another about who found the raft that Izzi is not yet quite clear who did. The feeling was that if any one man could prove he was first to find the raft, he would have a little more authority because of prior ownership, a sort of fief based not on legal papers but on the fact of a man's being there first. Izzi thinks that Hoogendam, van der Slot and Beezley were to- gether in the water, and that Beezley swam to the raft and was holding it while the others climbed on and then helped him over on to it. In any case, the three men spent hours talking about it. Maddox, in this, sided with Beezley and called him "skipper." Beezley's, van der Slot's and Hoogendam's being on the raft before Maddox and Izzi gave them a 95 vague priority over the other two men. Maddox for a long time, though, seemed one of the dominant men because of his alertness and the ideas he had. He thought of lassoing the shark, of making a trough- in the canvas covering so that water ran into the container, thus saving the unpleasant job one man had had to take before that of bailing water from the canvas into the water can, and he thought, too, of making fish spears from the two halves of the scis- sors that were in the first-aid kit. There were two knives on hoard at the time the journey on the raft began-Beezley's and the one Izzi had borrowed from the man on the bamboo raft. There were also two flashlights, and a running light. Beezley lost the first flashlight overboard. He didn't know quite how he did it; it slipped out of his hand. "We didn't bawl him out," Izzi says. The run- ning light, a bigger lamp, wore out, and eventually" the second flashlight gave out. The men put it aside, thinking it would be useful some day. One day towards the end of the second month, Hoogendam and van der Slot were pulling the feath- ers out of a bird when they saw a large wave com- ing. They jumped down to the deck of the raft, and pulled the canvas over them just as the wave struck. Izzi's long clasp knife was washed off. 96
"Then two or three weeks before we were picked up," Izzi says, "Hoogendam and I were reaching down through the cracks in the raft after little fish, and as we caught them, we would throw them to Maddox and the old man who were cutting their heads off and cleaning them. Beezley was too sick to do anything. He couldn't even wash a fish, he was so sick. Beezley's knife was lying on the canvas. The kid and I were so anxious to get the fish we were grabbing them and throwing them, splashing sort of careless, I guess, and van der Slot said, 'Take it easy.' Beezley was watching and he said, 'Why don't you push the canvas back so you won't get it wet with your splashing. Hoogendam didn't know the knife was on the canvas, and he pushed it back and the knife fell through into the water." They speared fish with the scissor halves on sticks for some time, Hoogendam being the most able at this sport. They got a few small, flat fish that way. One day, however, Hoogendam hit a fish, Izzi re- lates, that was too tough and the scissor broke. The spear with the other half of the scissors was washed overboard one day. With all tools gone, the men took the remaining burnt-out flashlight, removed the glass from it and tried to break it so they could have something to 97 cut birds and fish with. They tried for hours to break the glass, and finally Hoogendam broke it by slamming it against the outer edge of a slat. It was found that the glass had broken rather cleanly and was not much use for cutting anything, and so they took the reflector and bent it until it resembled a cookie cutter and sliced fish with it. Only once did the men play any kind of game, and it did not come off very successfully. "Hoogen- dam and Maddox started a checker game," Izzi said. "Hoogendam, I don't think, ever played checkers and Maddox said he would teach him. 'Get the first- aid kit,' Maddox told him, 'and scratch some squares on it with a knife.' We had a hell of a time explain- ing to Hoogendam what he meant by squares, but the kid finally got it. "They didn't have room for a full board, about four lines one way and five squares another. They took some matches, broke them in two, and used the ends with the heads for red checkers and the other ends for black ones. Hoogendam and my gun- nery officer played for a while, and Nick beat Mad- dox, and Maddox didn't want to play any more. Maddox told me to play with Nick, and Nick kept asking me, and finally I played but I didn't like it. You couldn't tell which match was which, and you 98 moved twice and you were on his side. I got fed up. It was silly. It only lasted for a couple of days. "Beezley and my gunnery officer used to sing a lot at first. They were from the West, you know, Indiana and Missouri, and they knew a lot of the same kind of songs, slow songs like cowboy songs. They had good voices, and sometimes they would hum. I never sang much. I wasn't in the mood." 99 CHAPTER X FIVE STRANGERS PLACED FOR WEEKS IN THE HIDEOUS confines of a raft meant to succor at the most three men for a few days are not likely to become close friends. Should a man be rescued, the sight of one of his companions later brings back to his mind the horrible days, the bickerings and the quarrelings, and he does not like it. Izzi, in the weeks I talked to him, had not yet met the men with whom he was found, and he had only a casual interest in doing so. He would like to say hello; that is about all. With two of the five men on the raft more happy speaking their native Dutch than English, it seemed inevitable that there would be a split among the survivors. It was not as wide as it could have been had not van der Slot and Hoogendam been of di- verse temperaments. Van der Slot, except for his dislike of Maddox's appropriation of the sail, was usually a calm, taciturn man, helpful to the others, never given to tantrums--what most people consider a typical Hollander. Hoogendam, only seventeen, 100 was somewhat of a cocky kid, as well he might be, having started a man's life at fourteen-the life of a man in a world of war. He sometimes bickered with the others, and was loud in his bickerings, yet his very volatility, Izzi says, was rather cheering. Sometimes, though, it was annoying and once Mad- dox said to Hoogendam, "I guess they didn't bring you up right, back home." Many persons have said that no man with much imagination could live the weeks Izzi spent on that raft without going insane. Izzi is completely un- neurotic, and his friends in South Barre who have seen him since his return say he is unchanged, still the pleasant, affable young man he was when he left the town. Izzi, however, lacks neither intelligence nor imagination. He has almost a poet's feeling for description, and no man who ever said "the phos- phorescent fish in the sea were like stars, and the stars in the sky were like ship's lights," can ever be accused of lacking imagination. Izzi, although not given to introspection, tends to regard himself de- tachedly. "I got it quick," he says, laughing, when some one remarks in his presence that his first voy- age was certainly a tough one. "Italian people are wonderful and funny people; they are crazy," he says of his family. "When something happens to 101 you, they want to give you everything they have. There is a funeral in your home, the people come over to the house and leave money, and you have enough to care for expenses and a litte left over so you can pick up where you left off." The atten- tion he has received since his return has not changed him; he thinks there is a little too much attention, and he doesn't get enough time for himself. Maddox, of the five men on the raft, was probably least suited for the adventure. Of sufficient physical well being to pass the Navy tests, he nevertheless was no match physically with the others. He was a student, a teacher, and had been lifted from his rather sedentary life as an instructor and placed among men who had worked physically most of their lives. Maddox had exercised, but games and sports do not make for the same conditioning as daily physical labor. Beezley, Izzi feels, had knocked around too much on his shore leaves to be in top physical condition. As the days wore on, a curious change in their relationship took place with Izzi and Maddox. Izzi still speaks of the Ensign as "my gunnery officer," and yet in the final days, as Maddox became progressively weaker, the officer would turn to the seaman for help and for consolation. In the final 102 quarrels over the sail cloth and Beezley's dungarees, Maddox would turn from van der Slot and say to Izzi, Tell him, Izzi, explain to him. "Right after we buried Beezley at sea, my gun- nery officer said to me, 'Izzi, I think I'm going next.' I told him nobody is going next," Izzi said, "and that if anyone is going to die, we'll all go together. He patted me on the shoulder and said, 'Izzi, you are a brave man.' He always was saying I was a brave man. I didn't get it. "Maddox used to tell me about how his mother had wanted him to be a minister, and how his father had wanted him to be a lawyer, and finally how he had become a teacher. He was a good-looking, very sociable guy, with light brown hair. He had gotten married, and he built a little house on a hill in Lafayette, Indiana, and he would talk about that, and how when we all got back he wanted me to come visit him and we would go horseback riding. See, his family had been over here for a long, long time, and 'whenever there was a war, some of his family would be in the cavalry. His family couldn't understand why he didn't join the cavalry, and why he picked the Navy. He was just different, I guess. "He talked a lot about books. He used to read all the time on shipboard. I can remember going out 103 on watch, and coming back in at, say, two in the morning, and he would still be in his cabin, reading. Some nights he must have got only three or four hours' sleep, he read so much. There were a lot of books the Navy had given us when we left Brook- lyn, and he read a lot of those, and then he had a big red book he was always reading. I don't remem- ber what it was." Both Maddox and Beezley had had bloody urine since the start of the days on the raft, and shortly after Beezley's death, Maddox, who had been ex- tremely weak, became ill. For weeks, each day, he had been pounding the ledge impatiently until the men would ask him to stop. The next day he would twist a gold wedding ring on his finger, and tell Izzi about it. "My wife," Maddox told Izzi, "told me not to come back without this ring. It is good luck." Often at these times, Izzi would put his arm around the Ensign's shoulders. As with Beezley, Maddox began to lose his sight, and as his sight left, he became more nervous and the three other men would try to calm him. Finally, as they passed the seventieth day on the raft, Mad- dox had the same symptoms of blindness that Beezley had had. The other men would hold up four fingers, 104 and ask, "How fingers am I holding up, Jimmy?" and Maddox would reply, "Two." On the seventy-sixth day, they ran out of water. They had run out of water several times before that, but this time, when all were emaciated and hardly able to move, the situation was more serious than it had been before, and it had never been anything but critical. Maddox was having long spells of delirium, and would talk of his wife, of fellow in- structors at Purdue, of his family, of horses, of books, and of people he had known in his childhood. Sometimes the talk would fall off to a mutter, and the men could not understand him. The men wrapped him in the sailcloth, and laid him on a ledge where he could lie stretched out and more comfortable than in the impossibly cramped confines of the "deck." The sea was calm, and there was a hot sun. Maddox was unable to control him- self, and several times he relieved himself directly on Hoogendam. "We'd tell him what he just did," Izzi said, "and he would start to laugh. 'That's not a thing for a man your age to do,' we'd tell him, and he'd say, 'What's that? What's that? I didn't do anything.' He had been coughing up blood, and we couldn't 105 tell whether it was from his lungs or from his stomach. "We were out of water, and he would keep ask- ing for a drink. He'd say we had water but were keeping it from him. He couldn't see, and he could hardly hear, and he would beg us for water, and we would say, 'But, Jimmy, there isn't any water. We haven't got any water either.' "That night, the seventy-sixth night, he was groaning away all night-oooooh, ooooh, like that, most of the night. Now and then one of the Dutch-. men would feel him to make sure he was all right. "The next morning, the seventy-seventh day,. when I woke up, the kid said to me, 'You'd better look at your officer.' "There he was, one hand trailing in the water, his teeth showing, and a half smile on his face as though he felt good, and he was looking right at me. He. looked kind of like he was laughing, you know, and it made you shake. I felt his pulse, and I found out he was dead, all right. "I cracked down and bawled, right there. He was my gunnery offleer, and we got along swell aboard ship, and I got to like him awful much on the raft. "The other boys tried to comfort me. They both crawled over and put their hands on my shoulder, 106 and van der Slot said, 'Have courage.' But I cried most of that day. "We straightened Maddox out, and I remembered him saying his wife said to be sure he came back with that ring. He said he wanted to go down with the ring, but I remembered what his wife said, and I took it off his hand and put it in Beezley's wallet with the other stuff. It's a wonder the ring didn't slide off my gunnery officer's hand. It was trailing in the water, and we wondered why the sharks didn't get his hand. "We took off his dungarees, and we said some prayers about may he rest in peace. I said, 'If there is anybody else going to die, let the Lord take all three of us.' The Dutchmen agreed to that, and they prayed and I prayed. "Van der Slot asked, 'Shall we wait until tonight?' I said no, and so we said another prayer, and we rolled him over and shoved him over the side and buried him at sea. "This time we watched. His hair was awful long, and it floated out in the water, and we would see him drift past us, and back, back fifty feet or so, his hair floating out in the water. Then something jarred him, and the hair fluttered in the water, and then we could see him no more. 107 "We sat back in our places, and van der Slot said, 'Well, that's two out of five, three left.' Hoogendam said, 'Well, now we're the Three Musketeers.' Then I remembered there used to be a Three Musketeers' chocolate bar in the States, and I told them about that, and said, 'When we get back I'll buy you a case of them.' I told them again that I would never be without a candy bar, and that I would always have four cases of Milky Ways in my cabin. "But most of that day I cried. We washed Mad- dox's dungarees and the next day I put them on." 108 CHAPTER XI THUS IT WAS THAT THREE MEN, A THIRTY-SEVEN-YEAR- old oiler who had visited the ports of the world in his lifetime; a seventeen-year-old boy who had fled in a fishing boat from the Nazis; and a twenty-year- old baseball player from central Massachusetts, moved into the last days of one of the most incredible adventures of the sea. When the five were living, Hoogendam had sometimes crawled over to where Izzi lay and whispered, "These other fellows may give up hope, but we won't." In those last days, the three men grew closer in silent understanding. They were carried on by an instinct to live, and a full will to make themselves live. Unknown men have probably fished, caught birds, trapped drinking water for as long a time as Izzi, van der Slot and Hoogendam, and died any- way, after untold months on a raft or rudderless boat, but no men ever tried harder than these three to live. 109 "Right after Maddox's death," said Izzi, "some- thing happened for us. Back months ago we had put the remains of that first shark in the food container, and it had spoiled and made a terrible, rotten stink, and we had dumped the stuff out, and never used the food container again. We put the container at one end of the raft and never looked at it. Well, the day after my gunnery officer died, the old man put his hand in the container for no reason at all and felt water. He put his fingers to his lips, and it was sweet water. He jumped and reached over and shook our hands, 'I've found water; I've found water!' he said. We strained the water with a hand- kerchief and there were two cups full, and we each had a sip. It saved us, I think, and maybe if we had found it before we could have helped Maddox. I don't know how it got there." Izzi said that although he never admitted aloud that he might be giving up hope, that some of the days before Maddox's death he was almost despair- ing. "I didn't think that we'd get out," he said. "It rained so much some of those days. About the only time it didn't rain were those few days before Mad- dox died when we ran out of water. God, it doesn't rain this much, I used to think. If you are going to get rescued it might be, at least, good weather. But 110 we didn't talk about that. We'd only make each other feel worse." And so in the days after Ensign Maddox had been shoved into the sea which had destroyed him, there was little talking. The men lay on the bottom of the raft and tried to catch fish with their hands. They helped one another up when a man had to urinate. Most incredibly, they would tie a rope around one man, let him off into the water, and weak, emaci- ated, he would nevertheless go under the raft and hunt for snails. They did this each day toward the last, taking turns at going under. Van der Slot was the man who discovered the snails when taking a bath one day. He had pried a snail off the bottom of the raft, brought it on board with him, picked the gastropod out of its shell, tasted it gingerly, and announced it was good to eat. Finally all the men were eating the snails, shells and all. It may be pointed out that Izzi, van der Slot, and Hoogendam, the survivors on the raft, were the men who could eat best. Beezley had trouble eating either raw fish or raw bird's meat. Maddox had to force himself to eat raw fish, and then it had to be cleaned and boned. Izzi was the first to eat fish bones as well as the meat, and the other two men soon followed him in doing this. 111 The two cups of water van der Slot found in the food container had to last the men for three more days. They had been out of water for two days before the discovery. By this time their hair was so long they used it for pillows at night, and Hoogendam even devised a headband out of a handkerchief to keep his hair from falling over his face in the daytime. Their clothes were in rags, although Izzi, who had had no covering for his legs for months, was happy to have the hand-me-down dungarees they had taken off Maddox, who in turn had gotten them from Beezley. On the eighty-first day it rained, and-the men caught some water in a remnant of leaky canvas and stored it carefully in the water can after each man had a sip as his ration. They were too weak to snatch fish through the slats on the bottom of the raft, and existed on one or two snails which they were able to get off the bottom of their craft. "On the eighty-second night, just before we got under the canvas," Izzi said, "we heard a rumble, and there above us, away high, was an airplane. I held my right arm up with my left arm and waved. The other two fellows waved too. The plane, away up there, went right across the sky above us. It 112
didn't slow down or circle, but it made us feel good to know we were some place near where airplanes were. We went to bed so happy, and we thought of the things we were going to do when we got picked up. "The next day van der Slot heard another rumble very early in the morning. He shook us and woke us up, and said, 'Listen.' We looked out and there was some sort of a plane, a big four-motor job, which went out past us, and after a while it came back from the way it went. Each time we lay back on the raft and waved. Then after that a seaplane flew by and it looked like it was scouting, not looking for us, but just scouting. "Then early in the afternoon, van der Slot, the Dutchman, saw some smoke. He rubbed his eyes, and he said, 'I don't know, but I think I see some- thing on the horizon.' We couldn't see anything, but later on we saw it. "Then we saw one ship, then two ships, then four ships, a convoy. We hardly dared to say anything to each other. We just looked, and then van der Slot said, 'If this misses us today, I am going to jump overboard.' "The convoy didn't come toward us, but just went along the horizon. There were planes flying 113 around the convoy, and the first ship was a de- stroyer. We wanted to try and stand up, but we would fall down. The destroyer kept going fast around the convoy, and then we noticed some smaller ships, some PC boats. "Then a PC boat seemed headed right for us." A Dutch flag had been tied to a stick on the raft, and the men, who had thrown their canvas sail away, tried to loosen it. It was tied tightly and they struggled frantically to untie it so they would have something to wave. A raft is hardly visible at sea, and it seemed now that fate was deliberately put- ting the odds against them in what was probably their last chance for rescue. Finally they found a piece of the glass from the flashlight they had broken weeks before, and they hacked and hacked, their fingers hardly able to hold the glass, until the flag was torn from the stick. "We told van der Slot to stand up and wave the flag, and me and the kid would hold him," Izzi said. "We each held him by the ankle with one hand and braced his knees with our other hands. We were lying down holding him and we couldn't see what was going on. 'They're coming closer,' he told us. "The kid and I were awfully nervous, and scared. 114 'What are they doing? What are they doing?' we'd keep yelling at van der Slot. "And he'd say, 'Shut up! Shut up!' and we'd get more nervous and try to lift our heads to look out and see what was happening, and we'd forget and let go of the old man and he would start to fall down, and we'd grab him again, and it would start all over. 'What's happening? What's happening. we'd ask, and he was just as nervous and scared as we were and he'd say, 'Shut up! Shut up! They're coming closer!' "Then it came right over toward us full speed, and even the kid and I could see it. The first man I saw was a fellow on the bow beside a gun that was pointed right at us. He had a shell in his hand, and I said, 'Holy Mackerel, are they going to shoot us?' Then I saw the American flag on the boat, but still I was scared the way that guy was looking at us that had the three-inch shell in his hands." Van der Slot said, "They're going to torpedo us." The PC escort boat came up close to the raft, and the three men tried to climb up by themselves the rope ladders thrown down, but their knees buckled. Van der Slot was the only man who did not have to be carried on board. Somehow, with high Dutch pride, he managed to stand up and be assisted, not 115 carried, to the PC's deck. For a while the men on the PC boat thought there was a woman on the raft, because of Hoogendam's not having a beard. The men on the PC boat asked Izzi, van der Slot and Hoogendam how long they had been out, and the three men said, "Eighty-two days." They had missed count by only one day, thought it was Satur- day instead of Sunday. They had kept no record of the days past the forty-fifth day when the marks they had been putting on a paddle made them too discouraged. "It was easy to keep track of the days, though, after that," Izzi explains. "You know, to- day's Monday, tomorrow's Tuesday." Once they had known the boat was coming to them, Hoogendam and van der Slot had gone for the water can and started drinking the last of their water. They asked Izzi to join them, but he said he'd wait until he got on board. Van der Slot took the Dutch flag with him, and Izzi and Hoogendam took their drinking cups. The men on the United States PC, an escort boat, wrapped the three men in blankets, and gave them each a bowl of peach juice. Izzi asked for a ciga- rette, was given one, and it tasted, he said, terrible. The men lay on the deck, wrapped in blankets, and watched the men on the PC boat try to sink the raft 116 which, if left to drift, might be a menace to navi- gation and might attract the attention of some other ships, causing them to swing over toward it and possibly into a trap. "They put a lot of twenty-millimeter shells into our old raft," Izzi said, "but the shells they did hit her with wouldn't sink her. I was kind of glad of it. She was a pretty good old raft, but I was damn glad to be off from her." The Navy, in some of the stories it has released about Izzi and his companions, has said that the men called the raft "The Shark's Pit." Izzi insists that the punctuation and the spelling are wrong, and that the men referred to their craft as "Shark Spit," which has an entirely different connotation. 117 CHAPTER XII THE MEN ON THE PC BOAT SEEMED ODD TO IZZI. "THEY looked like big, fat fellows," he said. "I told one of them, 'You guys sure must eat on this boat,' and he looked at me like I was crazy.' Izzi, Hoogendam and van der Slot were merely bones and stringy, helpless muscles. Izzi had dropped from 145 to 80 pounds, and his two com- panions were even more emaciated. They were al- most completely dehydrated; their stomachs were shrunken into knots, and other parts of their diges- tive apparatus were almost atrophied. Raymond Buckley, then a pharmacist's mate, first class, was the highest ranking and trained Medical Corps man aboard, and he gave the men tender, skillful care, and later he was promoted to chief pharmacist in recognition of his work with Hoogen- dam, van der Slot and Izzi. "He gave us a bowl of peaches the first thing," Izzi said, "and then another bowl. I copped a candy bar off his desk, and it made me sicker than a dog." 118 Buckley had the men placed in beds, and for nights and days they slept only fitfully because the beds were soft, and the action of the boat was not that of the raft, and in the survivors' exhausted, hy- persensitive state, all comfort was strange and un- comfortable. The slight amount of fluids they were given started their body processes again, and Izzi would have to get up hourly to urinate. The PC boat was heading toward South America, when the ship, commanded by Lieutenant Gifford C. Ewig, found the raft which had been spotted by Earl T. Carpenter, seaman second class like Izzi. It was suggested that the three men be transferred to a destroyer escorting the convoy because it had a physician on board, but Izzi, Hoogendam and van der Slot had become so attached to Buckley that they said they preferred to stay with him. The three men had a quick recovery on the PC boat, a false one something like the sudden, un- healthy growth of some dank weed. Before they reached shore, they were walking a few steps, al- though always under the eyes of seamen on the ship who were ready to catch a man should a sudden movement of the deck throw his knees from under him. When they got ashore, they were placed in a small naval dispensary where they were thoroughly 119 examined and placed in beds for several weeks. They again lost their ability to walk, and had to learn to walk again. One of the doctors who treated Izzi had met him before, although he did not recall the young sailor. When Izzi's ship had put in there on the way out, lzzi stood gangway watch one day when the doctor came on board. For some reason, Izzi, who is a good sailor, forgot his salute. The doc- tor reprimanded him rather severely with a "Don't you salute officers on this ship?" Izzi said he started once to remind the doctor of this. "He didn't hear me, I guess, when I began to tell him, or maybe he wasn't paying attention," Izzi said, "and so I just decided to let it go." The men gradually got better, and by March, Izzi, whose recovery was quickest, was tossing a ball to children who hung around the naval station. Much of his weight was back, and he was sleeping better, although always in a curled position, as he used to sleep on the raft. He turned Beezley's ring and wal- let and Maddox's wedding ring over to a naval ob- server who sent them to the families of the two men. Later, Mrs. Maddox, at her home in Washington, gave to Izzi a small gold knife which had belonged to her husband. He treasures it. Izzi learned that the three lifeboats, bearing prob- 120 ably a third of the people on the ship when she was struck, had made land. Two were out five days, and the third eight. They had made the South American coast, had been cared for and sent home. Nearly all of the men rescued went back to sea again, and some of them, probably, have died since then in other sinkings. Late in March, Izzi was well enough to be sent home, and he said good-bye to Hoogendam and van der Slot who were hardly speaking to one another but would each talk to Izzi, and took a plane to Washington. Again Izzi was put in a hospital, this time at Bethesda, Maryland, where he was an object of scientific curiosity. "There were reporters, admirals, captains, all kinds of doctors, and everybody around all the time," Izzi said. "I hardly got any rest at all, and I only got one night's liberty by myself, and I went to a movie. The day I was supposed to get out they got a new bunch of doctors and they wanted to ex- amine me all over again and I saw some of the head officers of the hospital and said I didn't want any more of that, and so they called these doctors off For some months, Izzi traveled about the country with Ensign Mallett, then of the Navy's Industrial 121 Incentive Division, talking to workers in war plants. He was an inspiring sight, small, with heavy shoul- ders, and the quick, swaying walk of a boxer or in- fielder, with a dark face, dark eyes and a sudden, charming smile. Under questioning by Mallett, he would tell his story quickly and well, and by the time he had been at the business a few weeks, he had managed to develop a routine something like a vaudeville player, with timing for laughs. This was not caused by any histrionic desires of Izzi or any swelling of conceit, but rather by his bringing the job down to its essentials and doing it well. One Sunday he went home to South Barre. Hun- dreds of townspeople in cars covered with signs reading "Welcome Home Basil Izzi-Eighty-three Days on a Raft," met him at the station in Worces- ter; Massachusetts, drove him in state in an open car to South Barre where there were speeches by townspeople and Senator Walsh and a naval attache of the Dutch embassy in Washington, and from there to Barre for more speeches. That night there was a dance, and Izzi was presented with a water- proof watch by the proud people of his town. His mother stayed beside him, and his father hov- ered near. At the meeting in Barre, when all were tired, and it was growing cold at dusk, Mr. Izzi was 122 caIIed upon to make a speech. He said, in broken English, "Fine, fine, all come up to our house. Lotsa wine and beer." People crowded into the house, bringing presents and carton after carton of cigarettes. Izzi was home, and once he broke away and went for a walk through the woods skirting Power Mill Pond, and he asked his father about rabbits, and other young men home for the week end in the uniforms of their services talked with Izzi, and their conversation was about girls and leaves and various camps and sta- tions. Izzi's sisters grew disturbed, because when- ever he got permission to come home in later weeks, he dated a girl in the Polish community, and he tried to quiet them by saying it wasn't serious. All of Izzi's friends said he hadn't changed much. He still talked the same, looked the same, even if he had put on a little weight. He looked over his father's car, and was tempted to take the cylinder head off just for the fun of it. When older members of the Italian group around Barre came to the house, he spoke to them in Italian and he consented to have his picture taken with anyone who wanted it. In times such as these, it is very apparent that nearly every family in America has a camera of some sort. There was something honest and wonderful about 123 all of those reunion scenes, with people of the old and the new countries gathering in the Massachu- setts countryside to honor an American kid, who is typically American in the best sense-a good ath- lete, skilled mechanically, and with just the right amount of self-assurance. There are few men in the world who could have come through Izzi's experience, and even less who could come through as unmarked mentally and physically as Seaman Izzi. He may be back at sea duty by the time this reaches print, or he may be, as he hopes, learning to become an airplane me- chanic. Mallett, who was an official of Lockheed be- fore he went into the Navy, says that Izzi, after the war, can always get a job there. Both young men, at the time I talked to them, had their dreams. Mal- lett was hoping to get into the Navy's air forces, and Izzi was hoping for his mechanic's training. "I'll fix your plane for you, Mr. Mallett," Izzi would say. "Yes, you will," Mallett would reply, and they would go off on a long, ragging conversation. Izzi says he would not mind sea duty again. "I kind of like the sea," he said one day. "But I would kind of hate to go back on a merchant ship again. I want my next ship to be able to take it and to hand it out." 124